Dear Mr. President,

I am writing you today at the behest of 350.org, but also because I personally feel there are many things that need to be said. I could expound upon Climate change, and emphasize the fact that 350 parts per million is the upper limit of carbon emissions that our planet can handle, but I would only be repeating the probably thousands of other emails and letters you have received. The issue of the disparaging state of our planet is an issue that is many faceted, and like the Earth it is an interconnected web, a fundamental unity behind seeming separateness. Even if the best happens at Copenhagen this year, and a meaningful treaty is agreed to, there still needs to be a fundamental reorganization of how we live and do business. We need to understand the many dimensions of this problem, and like a cancer destroy it at the root; otherwise it will continue to reappear. So allow me to share my personal knowledge, perspective and suggestions in regards to the environment.

Looking at the problem of the Climate as indeed a cancer does raise the question, of what really is the fundamental problem. The answer lies in the most basic facet of being human, food and water. The truth is that our world is the way it is because of what we do to our bodies, as by our thoughts and emotions we create our world. If we heal ourselves, we will heal the Earth. The common western diet that is rich in meat and refined grains, in addition to the ridiculous amounts of overly powerful and unnecessary prescriptions, completely ignores the concept of balance between yang warming food and yin cooling food, and as such this imbalance is reflected in the natural world. Such consumption of primarily warming foods, and the chemicals/additives present in most of it, serves to overheat people’s livers, the same organ system that in Oriental Medicine is the root of anger, of arrogance and an egocentric personality. It directly leads to the greedy and materially obsessed mindset shown by many in this country that is killing our planet. By this common overheated personality our world reflects the same imbalance, becoming warmer by the day. There is no question in my mind that the rampages and absurd self-serving mentalities we are seeing these days are a direct result of people being fundamentally debased by the twisted food they are eating. These people are sick, in the most basic physical way.

The place to begin to solve this problem is to remove the ridiculous subsidies that are in place in our agricultural system now. Instead of commodity crops, we need to support bio-diversity. Instead of large corporations like Cargill and Monsanto, we need to support the local organic farmer. As the system is set up right now, we are wasting tremendous amounts of bio-mass and energy. Not only are we poisoning the earth with run off from factory farms and oil based fertilizers, but we are poisoning ourselves with food that is so processed and defiled, it scarcely resembles the plant from which it was derived. I ask you to subsidize local food production, as in small and community based organic agriculture, not greed and environmental destruction. Local food production also reduces greenhouse gas emissions, as food is no longer being shipped over hundreds of miles. That is in addition to the fact that in organic farming there is no more runoff. Manure from grass-fed, free range livestock then serves as fertilizer, in addition to compost. Petroleum based fertilizer and the machines required for the current large scale agricultural operations are no longer needed. Approximately 20% of greenhouse gas emissions come from commercial food production. This is an extremely simple change that would have incalculable positive ramifications for our society and the planet.

Gandhi was once quoted as saying “the greatness of a nation, and it’s moral progress can be judged by the way in which it’s animals are treated”. The living death that most commercial livestock are consigned to desperately needs to change. Raising animals that never see the light of day, are genetically altered to promote faster (unsustainable) growth, and live covered in their own filth and tripping over their own dead because they are packed in pens like sardines is a fundamental corruption of who we are as individuals and as a society. It applies to mega dairy farms as well. What we are doing to the animals of this country is downright evil. There is no need for this industrialized death, there were more bison naturally produced on the Great Plains than all the beef farms in the area now. It is imperative that you start subsidizing free-range, grass fed livestock, and implement programs that boost the habitat and numbers of natural game animals, respecting the natural order of things (stop poisoning predators with Compound 1080 and Sodium Cyanide) so people may hunt for their own food, thereby honoring the creatures we eat for food with at least a fighting chance.

All of this suffering and death manifests, and this is the truth of why people are getting so sick. Agricultural and nutritional reform is the true healthcare reform. The perversion that is our modern food supply, whether it is plant or animal manifests in the mind, and interferes with clarity of thought and physical health. Educate people that by an unadulterated whole food diet and less-stressful lifestyle they need to go to the doctor fewer times, for less severe problems. Put the proverbial sock in Big Pharma’s and Big Ag’s mouth and get out the truth by whatever means necessary that there is a very simple solution to peoples health problems, what they are eating. Decentralize the system. Encourage small agricultural operations and businesses, tip the scales in favor of small restaurants that serve healthy wholesome meals by monetary incentives, and throw the book at fast food.

The other most fundamental aspect of human incarnation, and as a result the climate issue, is water. You can not drink the water in any river in this country and as a result most are forced to drink tap water that among other things has chlorine in it, a substance that breaks up Vitamin E and as a result leads to diseases such as cancer and Alzheimer’s which are caused by Vitamin E deficiency. Choking our already polluted waterways with dams is inhibiting the water cycle from naturally rinsing CO2 out of the atmosphere. So not only do dams prevent waterways from naturally cleansing themselves through aeration, preventing the choking algae blooms that locally killed off half the fish where I live this past year, but also in allowing the Earth a greater chance of cleaning up the mess we are making of Her.

As revolutionary as the idea must seem I feel it is imperative to our survival that not only do we put extremely strict limits on pollutants in waterways, if not eradicate them entirely, but we open the dams in this country. It requires a lot of reorganization, but if we can use things like Eminent Domain to take away people’s land to build unnecessary high-voltage transmission lines, as American Transmission Company did in my area a few years ago, a corporation I might add that is investor owned, we can take the necessary steps to evacuate people out of the path of the draw down of these dams and do something that actually is in the spirit that Eminent Domain was conceived, an action for the greater good of society. This trend of choking and inhibiting water from cleansing itself needs to be reversed.

Part of what is polluting the waterways is paper mills. The large scale logging going on in this country needs to stop now. The Chequamegon-Nicolet National Forest, or as it is more commonly referred to around here, the Northwoods, is the most heavily harvested forest in the country. It is logged at a rate of 116 million board feet per year, and at the current rate it will be gone in 45 years. This must stop. This priceless resource breathes the CO2 out of our air. A new way is not impossible, but it does require that we cease to support multinational corporations that exploit people and land. It requires that we take back possession of our local resources and stop logging for profit. With the removal of exploitation and corporate harvesting of non-renewable resources, this blight would cease. We need to stop the trend of deforestation, and an idea of the Civilian Conservation Corps should be revisited. People would be provided much needed jobs replanting trees and restoring the environment. I implore you to legalize hemp as well, as not only are there the medicinal, spiritual and anti-psychotic properties of this plant, but it serves a viable and renewable alternative to timber in the production of paper. I ask you to make all of this a reality.

With large scale industrial operations, comes the problem of how to power all this destruction. I obtained a copy of the World Health Organizations 1984 study on the effects of electrical fields on both humans and animals. There is a documented rise in cancer including leukemia, rise in stress triglycerides, interference in pineal gland functioning, the same gland that rules estrus and sleep cycles, and as a result there was a 20% increase in nocturnal activity around electrical fields. The implications of cancer are obvious even if they are being ignored, but rise in stress can be linked to people snapping as we have been seeing these days. An increase in nocturnal activity, i.e. insomnia and sleep disturbances can be linked to skyrocketing rates of depression, manic depression and schizophrenia. Look around us, we are immersed in a bath of electricity everywhere we go in this so-called Digital Age.

Large centralized power companies are horrifically inefficient, and it is they and large industries they serve that are the real polluters. So much emphasis is placed on the individual when really the problem lies with the corporate, centralized system. Over half of power generated at large power plants is lost right of the bat. That means that half of the mercury pollution from these plants is completely unnecessary. High-voltage transmission lines lose a great deal of the power they carry as well so that in the end, the power that actually gets used is a quarter of what is generated. This doesn’t even begin to cover the ionization that goes on as well, making more Ozone. CFL light bulbs not only are putting a band aid on a mortal wound, but they are made with vaporized mercury. We are already being poisoned by mercury in the fish, in the water, in our vaccines, but now we’re going to bring it directly into our homes and it won’t even be a choice anymore because incandescent will be illegal soon? How on earth is this preserving individual freedom and sound public policy?

The real solution is to stop electricity from being a corporate run utility and make it a locally run cooperative. There are several such models in Wisconsin alone. Provide more programs like NCAP to aid people in weatherizing and making their homes more energy efficient. Provide government subsidies for homeowners to purchase solar power. With a decentralized grid, there is far less waste, in addition to the fact that power outages would be much more isolated and smaller. TV and radio need to be taken out of corporate hands and decentralized as well. In addition electricity needs to be a choice, not a mandated requirement as it is in my town. When a person can’t even afford to feed their family, governments are going to demand people pay for profit corporations for a service that truth be told is not necessary to our survival but more over is actually a detriment to our health and well being?

The answer here is not more electricity as Big Coal and Big Oil would have us believe, but less. We are all going to die if we continue the trend we are on, and it isn’t so much from Climate Change as it is from so much radiation. We are the cat in the microwave at this point, to put it bluntly. Background radiation on the planet is rising. Nuclear power should be banned as well, as the waste is radioactive for centuries, more radiation with the possibility of another Chernobyl or Three Mile Island to boot. You need to educate people as to what all this technology really does. Use the demon for it’s own destruction. Put it all over the news, make sure every man woman and child knows, in terms they can understand the dangers of radiation from exposure to even household electrical fields.

You are the leader of the “free” world. By appearances you have the most power of all, but in that I am reminded of the game of chess, where the king has little more movement than his pawns. You must remember it is the Earth that grants you dominion. For the land provided the wealth that greased the wheels of your campaign. At Copenhagen this year, you need to do the right thing. You need to take the necessary steps to save the planet, no matter what. If other nations refuse to sign on or negotiate well then I encourage you to continue leading by example as you already have. Nothing worth doing is ever easy. If my suggestions seem unobtainable well then I challenge you to contemplate that phrase more deeply, for our lives are measured not in how much we make or our social position, but in what we did with the time we were given, and whether we chose to serve ourselves, or the rest of humanity and thereby God.

Sincerely,

Debra Weiss

Wausau, WI

So here we are again.  I am continuing to revise my book, and as promised I am giving you all previews.  This chapter falls as the second to the last in the book.  I will publish more soon.  But here is another teaser for your perusal:)

Chapter 16-Sex

As I sit here and read over what I have written so far, I feel like I am looking at an ancient building. A crumbled relic that is little more than badly damaged foundation. But even though the building has long since collapsed, I can still feel it’s presence, almost make out shadows of walls that once stood in grand testament to the very basis of humanity itself . I struggled with the relevance of all I had learned over the years. I struggled to get it, what the profound conclusion was that all of it was pointing towards. And I struggled with it because I was still thinking in terms of something complicated, something grandiose, something very cerebral. But as much as I hate to admit it, even I was still falling into the patriarchal trap of always ego consciousness. I was still thinking, instead of feeling.

I look at our world and I am deeply saddened. It is not the kind of discontent that makes me want to blow up buildings or organize protests. It’s the kind of discontent that makes me wonder what everyone is racing around in circles for, and why doesn’t anybody else get the futility of the way society is set up. I feel like I am sitting in the center as the chaotic world rushes about me in fast forward. I got what I asked for all those years ago. I got perspective in spades, but when it came down to it I am so very lonely, because I feel like I am the only one who gets it. Thoreau said in Walden, “Simplify, simplify simplify“. Such wisdom is not new. Many have followed his path and words, and strove to return to nature and concentrate on the things that really matter. But what are those things. What is the key that is missing, the overlooked piece of the puzzle? One half is sex.. Sex in all of it’s forms. Love, Marriage, emotional bonding, the physical act, and sex as in all it produces, death/rebirth/birth, and regeneration/healing.

A person needs shelter, food and water, a bath, clothes, social companionship and love. Yet people scurry out of the big box stores with cartloads of crap they don’t need, and then wonder why they are still miserable and have to work so hard to afford to live. When people look to external satisfaction, the cycle never ends, and true satisfaction is never achieved, instead the cycle of despair deepens as people realize the retail therapy fix is fleeting and still leaves a person feeling used and alone. Many have said it before but the focus needs to be internal. We humans are a universe on to ourselves. You will find never-ending amusement and exploration within yourself if you would only learn to listen. You have God within you, and he/she will tell you and give you everything you really need. It appalls me how many people have to have a TV on, or radio, or something to fill silence. And the reason is that in that silence one is forced to listen to ones own internal monologue, and in the mind of a person who is sick off of prescriptions drugs, sugar, refined grains, excessive meat eating, hopped up on stimulants, that internal monologue is freakishly out of control.

Sex is the most fundamental aspect of being human aside from eating, menstruation, breathing and evacuation. People want to dress it up, and escape it as much as possible, even hating themselves for having desire, but when it comes down to it, you are ruled by it. Period, end of story. You can run from it and be controlled by it, or you can face it and have it be a source of natural happiness that is given positive outlet. Being a dancer I saw this everyday, and it seemed the more Christian or socially elevated a person was in the outside world, was all the more they were depraved when they came to me. If you suppress it, you only turn it into a demon, and then you have the rapists and child molesters as a result, and you re left with a profound sense of emptiness and loneliness that drives you to fill the void in other ways.

The Christian Church taught us that to indulge the most basic desire for sexual congress was a sin. Even in the bounds of marriage it was only for procreation, and things like fellatio were an abomination. Pleasure was out of the question. Thus even the legal vehicle for sex was stunted, and left the couple in a state of profound shame or resentment that often led to infidelity or hatred. Women were encouraged to dress modestly, lest they be confused with whores, and that their only function was to be vessels to be filled. Men were left with wives that did little to arouse them, and such the woman he loved became the ball and chain he loathed.

I think the reason why the lessons of aesthetics have not been heeded, and by that why people still look to external satisfaction instead of internal, is that these “gurus” have paired this wisdom with less desirable pursuits, such as celibacy. I’m sorry but you are not wise if you cannot reconcile your own sexuality and instead choose to mutilate it and stuff it in a drawer. True wisdom comes when you can accept being human and nature as it is, and that we are created sexual creatures for a reason. Just as the Church fathers betrayed their abnormal preoccupation with sex by their derogating it with such an obsessiveness, any teacher who says sex is shameful, or dirty, or that desires of the flesh should be transcended for enlightenment is really saying that they are still quite immature that they cannot reconcile body and spirit, and that they are ignorant of the very foundations of humanity and thus religion.

Even in the aftermath of the feminist movement, the hippies and Vatican 2, we were supposed to be liberated from our sexual prisons, but yet things are still in disparaging condition. The divorce rate in this country is 50 percent. Sexual predation is going up, not down. Depression is rising and the adult entertainment industry is still doing a booming business. If we were indeed freed, why is everything still a mess? Because nobody has sought or fully explained the divine nature of sex, that is the birthright of every human being, everyday. If you tip the scales so far in one direction, as sex was when it was maligned as evil, you must let the scale fall back the other way. Sex needs to be recognized as the holy and life giving force that it is.

You ask most people about sexual alchemy and they will look at you with at best a blank stare. Few people even know about it, let alone what it is. Even tantra, the most famous form of it all, that still is alive and practiced today, is at best badly misunderstood. We are holy. Every last human being on the planet no matter how depraved they may come has a small spark of the divine within them. Whether you recognize it or not, it is there. There have been so many debates as to why a basic act for procreation is so pleasurable and I don’t know if I want to laugh or vomit at the absurdity of it. It was made pleasurable for us to enjoy it.

This is not to say that I condone mass orgies, because I do not. The various transformations of sexual worship over the centuries was a necessary development in our human spiritual consciousness, but Bacchanalian rites I feel are ones that are best left in the past. We are evolved and civilized and the divine can be fully honored in a monogamous relationship and should be. Just as the Divine lord and lady are one, so should man and woman be one. Not man and woman plus another man and another woman ad infinatum. Even Tantra teaches a committed monogamous relationship is the best to practice alchemy in, because trust is key here, and I’m not just talking about sex, I’m talking about love too. If more people had a lover, and had time to enjoy said lover, there would definitely be less anti-depressant prescriptions being prescribed. There would be less crime, as everyone would be busy getting it on, and probably a lot happier, their would be less pollution, as instead of going out and conquering mother nature, men would be in bed conquering their women, and the women would be most grateful for it. The artificial edifice of commerce and employment would shrink to a more normal size, where it actually serves the needs of man, as opposed to enslaving them.

The wisdom that was buried with the dark goddesses was the salvation of sex, as in it‘s healing regenerative power. You do not need to be an initiate in sexual alchemy to partake in the holy aspect of lovemaking. Make no mistake though, there is more than meets the eye when it comes to sexual congress. However you need only have an open heart and love to feel renewed. Anyone who knows, has felt the redemptive power of love, and the bliss at the moment of orgasm. It transcends all feelings of separateness and loneliness and for a brief fleeting moment, you are One. You could be having the day from hell, but the sweet passion found in the arms of your lover can reset anything, or at the very least dull pain and put distance between you and whatever caused it.

Sex and religion are intricately linked however, there is something quite profound in the conjugal act. Most have sought to suppress the sexuality of man or control it, as a means to control the faithful. But that approach is hideous and horribly wrong. I am not surprised  of the scandals of the Church in recent years. The Church Patriarchy committed a grievous sin when they put the strictures on sex that they did, and their fate is the price they pay. As an undercurrent to all the Goddesses I mentioned there is that edifice I mentioned in the beginning of the chapter. Something so deep, so profound that nothing could completely destroy it. Sexual Alchemy and ritual lovemaking is the foundation of humanity. Almost every great ancient culture had some form of it, and it is no surprise to me that with the suppression of these rites also came the gradual attrition of grandeur from architecture, art, spirituality governance etc. Sex is the sacred fire, it must be maintained

The fundamentally profound nature of sex is that it is a means to empowerment, enlightenment and immortality. In Tantra there is the kundalini, a serpent that is coiled in the base of the spine, the practitioner envisions the kundalini uncoiling and going up the spine into the skull, providing a direct charge to the brain at the moment of orgasm. What I have learned and practice though is something called the Sex Magic of Isis. There are two ways of doing it, either alone or with a partner. It involves visualizing two serpents coming out of the base of the spine. One is the lunar serpent (the essence of void, magnetism, gravity, feminine) and the other is the solar serpent (the essence of light, radiant, nuclear, masculine) The solar serpent comes out on the right and the lunar comes out on the left. If doing this alone, you visualize the serpents crossing through each of the first five chakras, crisscrossing each other as a result, and ending at the area that physically is your brain stem. This is called the chalice, and you visualize a cup in the area where the spine meets the skull that each serpent is poised over so at the moment of orgasm, the energies of the two serpents travel up the spine, through each chakra and discharge their respective energies into the chalice. If you are doing this with a partner, you run your serpents through them, as opposed to through yourself, and they do likewise, and you climax together. You must trust each other to do this because the energy that will be released, is mind-blowing. Physics tells us that when matter and antimatter meet, they annihilate each other releasing tremendous force. The energies of the two serpents can be likened to matter and antimatter. I will get into such magical topics in greater depth in the next chapter, but the more you practice this most holy form of regeneration, the more psychically powerful you will become, and eventually it is supposed to lead to eternal life. Conversely just like matter and antimatter annihilating each other, there is a definite potential for serious psychic damage if done incorrectly. I encourage you to fully explore this most holy and powerful practice through further research. It will be most worth your while.

Whether you practice alchemy or not though, let your life slow down. Make time for love instead of work. Believe me, work will find you, you don’t need to schedule that.. And besides a good hour or two worth of work can get a lot done, spend the rest of the day in pleasurable pursuits. Make love, worship your partner as a God, and ask that he love you like a Goddess. Pleasure him in whatever way, and do not be ashamed of anything he might want to do, if it’s physically possible, there is no law that says it’s wrong . Don’t be in a huge rush. Spend three hours in bed, and if you have kids well make time where your not interrupted by them. You must maintain your relationship, your kids will suffer if you don’t. Spending all day in bed is not a bad thing. Get stoned, or mildly drunk. Behave irresponsibly. You will find that even just a little indulgence in that department goes a long way to your mental and emotional wellbeing and happiness.

When your not in bed spend time building your life together. Grow your own food. Maintaining a garden is both a spiritual and sexual act, that can strengthen a relationship, not to mention provide you with food. Do the ancient rite of Beltane, and of Demeter, of making love in the garden to ensure the soils fertility. What is produced becomes a symbol of bonding and of union, that you participated in that act of creation. Work together around the house, help when he’s fixing stuff, you might just find him hanging around when your doing the dishes.

When you begin to recognize the act of love making as holy, your life takes on new meaning. You become satisfied, you become more sedate. When you have a healthy bond of love you are complete. Many psychologists will tell you that you must be an individual in your own right, and that looking to another for completeness is a form of codependence. You do need to know who you are as an individual and come to terms with that yes, but we do find completion in another, because whether your male or female, your either lacking in a certain department or you got a little extra, and when you find the right mate, you will fit together perfectly, and in that you find completeness. As far as I am concerned the notion that the natural state of humans is to be alone is a load of bullox. No man is an island unto himself. It is separating us in an artificial way, that flies in the face of natural order to sell more anti-depressant prescriptions, because inevitably when your alone, you get depressed and anyone who says otherwise is either lying or a sociopath.

But a life where our most basic nature is holy. Where man and woman are God and Goddess respectively. That is the Garden of Eden we were kicked out of, that is paradise. When you slow down, and consume less and make love more you find peace. When you know that you have the power of God within you, and sex is but another vehicle of the expression of that divinity, it is liberation. When you acknowledge your body as holy, attraction to drugs and other vices cease. The need for constant external input ceases. For the record, I do not classify alcohol and marijuana as “drugs“. They are, but they are natural ones. They have been used with reverence since ancient times, Marijuana being sacred to both Shiva, the consort of Kali, and Tahuti or Thoth as he is better known, the husband of Ma’at. They are a means to greater pleasure, but also must be used with wisdom and temperance, lest they begin to control you. What I am worried about are hard synthetic drugs or heavy duty psychedelics which can drive you insane.

If the world is to get better, the messed up attitude our society has towards sex needs to change, we need to recognize it as the holy powerful force that it is and it begins with woman. In Tantra and other forms of sexual alchemy, woman is held higher than man. Not to say she is better but the feminine wisdom that is called soul, that resides in the Crown Chakra, is the highest principle of all, and women are the embodiments of it. We women are the center of society. We are the culture bearers, the childrearers, cooker of meals, cleaners and creators of homes, and it is our magnetic beauty that brings men to us longing for union with us. Beauty that is inspiration for both poems and the great works of art, and unfortunately wars as well. Feminism rightly threw off the yoke of sexism, but it made it so that women who did want to be happy housewives were still somehow oppressed. I don’t know about anybody else, but I like sitting at home, gardening, taking care of the animals, reading and writing, and I love cooking for my sweetie so that when he gets home from work he has a home cooked meal, prepared with love to restore his strength. Frankly the outside world scares me, there are a lot of out of control weirdos wandering around and I would rather not have to go out into it everyday. I wouldn’t trade my role as homemaker in for the world. The afterbirth of feminism is that it tried to make women the same as men, we are not.

Man’s energy is direct, initiatory, whereas woman’s is mutable and receptive. The four phases of the moon is the perfect way in which to describe the nature of woman, hence it being no coincidence that the moon is more often than not considered feminine, just as it is no coincidence that if a woman spends enough time outdoors, her periodicity will synch with the moon, so that she is fertile during the full moon and bleeds during the new. The four phases of the moon directly relate to not only the phases of a woman’s life, maiden, mother, crone and then death, but it also speaks to the monthly cycle of woman, and therefore her nature and strength. There is no suppression of the light side of woman. That is what is socially acceptable. However there is most definitely a misunderstanding and suppression of woman during her new moon, underworld death phase, signaled by her moon blood. Just like the death goddesses of the underworld, there is something priceless to be gained by not only facing this aspect of woman, but joining with her as well.

In our culture, a woman’s period very often is viewed as an inconvenience at best. This is especially disconcerting to me. You can hear it in the misogynist idiots who talk about not trusting something that bleeds for seven days and doesn’t die. In ancient times a woman’s “dark moon time” was viewed as the height of her power. The menstrual blood is viewed as especially regenerating in sexual alchemy traditions(think rusty sword and you’ll get it) and across the board it is during this time that a woman’s powers of prophecy were considered to be at their greatest strength. At the new moon, a menstruating woman is in greatest tune with her emotions that are an underworld onto themselves, and dreams and oracular visions come from the underworld. Just as the underworld Goddesses regenerate, so bleeding every month is also a woman’s way of renewing herself, flushing out the month before so that at the end of her cycle she can emerge healthier and stronger.

Woman need to stop trying to keep up with men during this time, and take the time to rest and sit in introspection. Eat chocolate, sit around in bed, read books, watch movies. Ignore those who tell you that you need to be able to keep on during your period, they are ignorant to say the least. You can actually damage yourself if you exert yourself too much during your moon time. It is a time when the delicate emotional undercurrents surface, and are especially vulnerable. You’re not a man, stop trying to be one. A woman’s moody seeming bipolarness, is the way she supposed to be, because we are equipped to dip down into that frightening underworld of death, of emotion, of oracular vision and magic to regenerate ourselves, and those that have the courage to unite with us during that time.

I think the truth of why the wisdom of the nature of woman was lost, and the feminine suppressed is in those matriarchal prehistoric cultures, men were treated as inferior, and that paved the way for the pendulum to swing back the other way so that woman are now treated as inferior. What goes around comes around. I believe in the equality of the sexes, one is not better than the other. We are equal, and we are different. We both need each other, but we need to learn to truly understand and respect the fact that we are different, and not be afraid of that fact. We were created that way for a reason. We were created as such so we might feel the ecstasy of reuniting with each other.

Just as women are not men, so men are not women, and it is up to us women to be men’s emotional strength. Maybe you have a man that is in touch with his feminine side and can articulate his feelings, but the majority of males look at being emotional as being effeminate, and they are taught to suck it up and deal. Your not going to get them to talk to you like another girl so don’t even try. This stuffing down of emotions is very unhealthy, that can leave them emotional cripples, but the constancy that results from not always dipping down into ones emotions all the time is valuable. The comfort that comes from knowing my partner will always get up and do what needs to be done is priceless. At the same time though, men can become ticking time bombs and violent if there is never any attempt to understand why they do things or how they feel, or if they feel used or unappreciated. All that magnificent strength men possess can be turned against you in the most horrific way. Men have their own darkness too, and for their own reasons.

Women however are extremely in tune with their own emotions and have a tremendous capacity for empathy, and so it follows that one of our functions in a relationship is to provide an emotionally secure environment where men eventually sense that can let out how they feel. Don’t berate or beat it out of them, just be there to help when they want it. Our intuitive nature is invaluable in childrearing as well, to figure out our children and why on God’s green earth they do the crazy things they do. I had three boys, I know how bizarre it can be. But the converse of this all is that we can do serious damage if we abuse this emotional trust. It is a pity more women do not realize the power they possess, for I know all to many men who have grown to hate women because somewhere in their past they were repeatedly hurt by women who cheated on them, crushed them emotionally, and have no knowledge that they even did it, or worse yet looked at the guys like they were sissies. A lot of women are like kittens, who ambush an unsuspecting victim, sink their claws in and then run away, all to the end of trying to prove their power and prowess, because they are unsure of it. Most women do not realize their power because it was buried in the foundations of the Church, and with great power comes great responsibility. This is where the concept of Soul comes in.

A woman, who has gone through initiation, who has learned what her power is, and how to use it wisely, becomes an embodiment of Soul. It is a difficult concept to describe, but both men and women have them, just as they have spirits, but the two are entirely separate and distinct. Opposite sides of the same coin, with Spirit being male and Soul being female. Soul is associated with the concepts of surrender, release and incoming will. One could call it Karma, but it is this highest form of feminine wisdom that can serve to put both man and woman in harmony with God and with Nature. This is the Goddess that man seeks to worship in an offering of Love. By the magical gifts women are endowed with, which again I will get into more in the next chapter, we serve as being a holy guide. Woman is the totality of what can be known, and man is the knower, the hero who responds to the challenge and seeks to know her to her very depths. When the two are perfectly matched, the knower and the known, they are both released from pain and suffering, and the man who can accept woman, and not shave off parts of her he doesn’t like or cant control, is king of the universe. In the joining of male and female who are equal in power and strength, comes salvation, and this applies to when the male and female mythologies and religions of the world are matched perfectly as well. It is the salvation of our planet.

The role of initiate or priestess in ancient cultures included not only being an intermediary and embodiment of the divine, but a healer as well. They were trained in magic, herb lore, music etc. In essence I am sending out a call for priestesses with this book, priestesses of love, and what I learned as a dancer, as a student and as a mother I am passing on, so that the world may be healed by the institution of a college of the feminine mysteries, to finally balance the male, both in joining with Him fully, and having the power to check Him when He gets out of line.

So number one, take care of yourself. What is within shall come out, and what is out shall come within. Your beauty is your number one asset, true beauty being soul, hold onto it as long as you can, and that is actually longer than you think if you respect the delicate balance that is a woman. We are far more sensitive to external influences and emotional trauma. Women are more likely to internalize pain and suffering and manifest it in the form of breast cancer (breasts are the symbol of a woman’s nurturance, her sensitive empathy: breast cancer is a direct sign that that nature has been abused in the woman in question) or other disease. Women are very delicate creatures emotionally. We can be stronger than any force in the universe as well, but not if our basic nature is not respected and nurtured.

Women need significantly less protein than men, so that being said eat a mostly vegetarian diet. I say mostly because you do need some meat in your diet, but try to get the stuff that is high quality and treated humanely, or that you hunted yourself. You are what you eat, and the suffering of a creature that was only raised for food, and never saw the light of day, as all non-organic, non-cruelty free meat is, will manifest in your psyche and your soul and affect you negatively. A vegetarian diet will clean you up on the inside.

The natural world is a direct reflection of human consciousness, and if we heal ourselves we will heal the earth. The quality of ones food needs to be paid attention to. In our current age of anxiety and stress, refined foods such as sugar and over milled grains further accelerate and destabilize our bodies’ metabolism. Magnesium, a mineral found in brown rice and stone-ground wheat (make sure the ingredient label says stone-ground because otherwise it’s been refined) directly acts to break up what scientists have dubbed the anxiety peptide the forms in the brain. The magnesium found in whole grains cures restless legs, muscle cramps and spasms and has a general stabilizing effect on the body and mind.

Stay away from synthetic drugs of any kind. Even the legal ones destabilize you and will age you faster. Learn to calm your mind, as mental hyperactivity and stress will also eventually manifest as premature aging. Herbs such as chamomile and valerian work very well as sedatives, as does marijuana, an herb that contains significant amounts of EFA‘s including Omega-3 and 6 and Gamma Linolenic Acid. These substances have been proven to help with vascular renewal (the heart and mind are linked in oriental medicine) and mental function. Maintain a healthy weight, and get regular exercise of some sort. The herb Pau d’arco greatly aids weight loss as it destroys pathogenic yeast that gums up a persons metabolism and thought processes, in addition to drying up the dampness of obesity. Meditate and focus on the development of your mind and your morals. As I said true beauty comes from within, concentrate on your Soul. Even in a situation like dancing, it’s the ones who can talk and carry on an intelligent conversation with substance, or express either by speaking or dancing a fundamental truth about the human condition and experience, that make the big bucks. You can be drop dead gorgeous, but it will only carry you so far, if you’re a monster who doesn’t care about anything except yourself, not only are you ugly to everyone around you, but you are doing your own internal goddess a tremendous disservice.

Confidence is a big part of sexual attraction too. Men are turned off by women either looking for a daddy or constant approval. Seek that inner goddess that every woman possesses, let her shine forth. She will transcend all your mortal shortcomings and you will indeed be beautiful beyond compare. Learn to recognize your sexuality as holy as well. Know the power you have, and the responsibility that comes with it. This responsibility not only includes not abusing your power, but also using it when necessary. Beauty is something that is sorely lacking in this world right now, and it is what is needed to get people to start making love to each other again, to stoke the fire of humanity. Because that is the truth of it, when the sexuality of a culture dies, the culture dies too. Not only is this in the procreative sense, that without offspring a population dies, but in the more fundamental role of sex, that of the life force of humanity that is the source of all inspiration. This is why our world is getting duller by the day, and stupider I might add, we’re letting the Sacred Fire burn out.

So that being said, is there some sort of rule that once you graduate from college your supposed to get married, gain 50 pounds and then lob off your hair? I really wonder because that seems to be the norm. A woman’s number one power is her beauty, and not extroverted go to them beauty, but magnetic mysterious attraction that drives men wild. Ladies use your magnetic receptive strength to its greatest potential instead of blighting yourself and acting like a man. Men want to know that they have indeed won a prize in their mate. They want to believe that they indeed have the most beautiful woman in the world, and it is woman’s duty, if she wants to keep her man, to keep up that attractive power. Men want to work for it, they want the challenge, they want to prove themselves man enough, it is in their very nature to conquer, and in that is implicit that you need to put up a fight, you need to give chase and you need to be attractive enough to inspire them to do so. There are very few women though who are appropriately schooled in our role in the mating game .

Soul is true beauty, but physical beauty is just as important when it comes to attracting a man. Men are visual creatures, they want something good to look at. Wear makeup, jewelry, corsets, stockings high heels whatever. And don’t just go for hot or sexy, your trivializing it when you do that. Go for queenly or Goddess like, and act the part. True beauty and majesty do not need to boast. If you are what you need to be, believe me, men will notice without you saying a word. By being beautiful and seductive, you are not a whore, nor are you submitting to them. Whore is merely a label inferior men have used to try to control something they know they can’t. Be the beautiful mysterious magnetic Goddess, that your men have been coming to us strippers to see.

Learn to dance for your partner as well. This is not a talent show, your aiming for seductive and erotic. Women dancing naked for the pleasure of men, is pretty darn normal and natural, its when it’s relegated to dark dirty bars, that are living disease factories because they are never properly cleaned or aired out, that it becomes unnatural. The schism between light and dark is unnatural. Put the beautiful maiden or mother back together with the seductive siren and you get a woman so beautiful, so passionate, so worthy of respect and adoration that no man dare deny her.

People stop being so prudish. Stop hating your body, and the fact you have feelings and urges, stop hating the opposite sex because of whatever trauma in your childhood put you through and realize that there is a very real form of salvation in act of lovemaking, and all that leads up to it. Lose yourself in blissful abandon. There is no feeling like dancing for your lover, and seeing the desire on their face, and finally have build until finally your wildly riding each other with complete abandon. There is nothing more satisfying than knowing that your partner burns for you, and only you. Stop playing by mans rules and make your own.

Which brings me to the other side of sex, the side that unfortunately is a very real possibility when the holiness of love is not respected . Love is the death of the individual. That is why sex was associated with the death Goddesses. With the relationship of love and sex, there is no I or you anymore, only us, and know that that union is an entity in and of itself, with its own power. You can either charge it with the power of love, or something else. But know whatever it is that you do fill it with will spread to all that come in contact with you. I’d rather be spreading love and life.

When the trust between man and woman is betrayed however, either by infidelity, or a woman is raped and abused, that darkness manifests. Just as sex has the power to manifest the beauty of life, it has the power to manifest Hell. Not only for the woman, but for the man who must then deal with the Karma of his actions. Make no mistake, each woman has a Goddess on the inside, complete with Her powers, both those of beauty, and horrific pitiless life sucking vengeance. Hell hath no fury like a woman’s scorn. That is the true paradox of the death Goddess. What was maligned as evil mindless destruction by the Church fathers was actually a deity that more often that not would go after the abusive egotistical monsters that I’m sorry, deserve to die. That is what I was doing unconsciously as a dancer, through the dark side of sex, acting as a Siren, I was grinding down those who really didn’t deserve their life or money anymore. So yes the Dark Lady destroys but for good reason. To maintain the balance and cosmic justice, just like the Furies of Greek lore. She destroys, but she builds something new and better out of that aftermath.

This concept of death being a passage to new life has been lost. Not only is it a means of vengeance but a means of renewal. This world can become very heavy and it can weigh your soul down, and it that capacity, death is mercy. But the loss of this wisdom can be seen everywhere. You can see how people are afraid of this renewing process, in the amount of anti-depressant prescriptions being written, because people are afraid of the breakdown/regenerative process of depression and psychosis. You can see it in a government that madly throws money into a failing system, all the while firmly refusing to acknowledge the stable ground to which they cling has already turned to quicksand. This cycle can be seen in the rotting of a compost pile, or a carcass at the side of a road. As gross as it may be, the microorganisms and flies break down the rotting matter into it’s constituent parts, providing the most fertile ground for the new. Death is but one facet of a Goddess and of the Divine, that is beyond all mortal comprehension. All you can do in the face of this regenerative process is face Her. Face what you most fear, for you will find the seeming destruction and degradation that surrounds Her is actually the cleansing sacred fire of rebirth. Renewing all who go through it and regenerating and healing those who have the courage to look and to Love.

There is one final concept that needs to be addressed in the discussion of sex and that is other aspect in which lovemaking is intricately associated with death. It is in the birth of a child. Motherhood takes away your individuality in a sense, especially when you are pregnant. Everyone knows pregnant women have a tremendous appetite, one that can be seem as having the same nature as the all devouring death Goddess, but as I said that destruction provides the ground for the new, a pregnant woman must consume to nurture the growing life inside of her. Motherhood forces you to have new priorities, it is no longer all about you. It is a redemptive, healing institution as I found out, where you learn so much about yourself and your true nature through your child, but a vocation that is subject to a lot unfairness.

If we want to heal the world, and save ourselves, maybe we should start with the mothers of our children, and beyond that the mother of us all, the earth. For no matter how scarred childbearing may make a woman, they are still beauty incarnate, in fact soul wise, they are even more beautiful after making a baby. They are the word made flesh, they took the spark of the father and manifested new life within them, sacrificing very real parts of their body to do so. Motherhood is a holy institution, whether you are married or not. There is the monstrous notion that a single mother is just a gutter tramp who deserves nothing, thanks to the Church and it‘s overzealous followers, but mothers, especially single mothers are heroines, and should be treated as such.

Mothers protect their children from the evils of the world. The patriarchal, capitalist world that values only money and will commit all sorts of atrocities in that pursuit and has is in the past, is a very real threat to the well being of children. There is a plethora of social woes facing us right now and they are a direct result of the ignorance to the feminine and Her mysteries. The Earth is our mother. The feminine in our society, just as with the Earth, suffers from a total lack of respect. We humans are the most spoiled brats out there for what we do to our Mother. The patriarchy takes and takes and takes with little or no thought as to the toll it takes on the feminine and that somehow, somewhere, that unsustainable growth has to be checked, by unstoppable destruction.

The patriarchy is corrupting our children with this taking without giving something in return mentality. We are raising a crop of spoiled ill-prepared children who are taught for no good reason that they are special, and that everyone’s a winner. Truth is, your only special if you truly strive to be and sacrifice for it, and you’re a winner when you earn it through your blood sweat and tears. Teaching children the mindless drivel that is predominant today is creating a set of adults who are lazy, feel entitled and cannot cope with the inevitable adversity life brings. You’re a monster if you would dare lay a hand on your bundle of perfection, but frankly you need to teach adversity, and how to behave as a moral adult in the controlled environment of their childhood, for their own good, lest you want someone who does not love them like mama teaching it to them later on. I love my little boy, but he can be an unholy terror when he wants to be. Children, just like adults, are a combination of both forces of creation and destruction, good and evil if you must label them as such. They are innately self serving and manipulative. They need to know boundaries, and they need to know them right away from the start, otherwise it results in confusion and personality problems later on. It is better to express displeasure immediately than let it build until people are so rageful at their children that they do cross the line.

Children are treated as if they are better than adults. I swear some people look at kids like they are supposed to save us, that adult life is flawed and only this new life has the power to change anything. It fits in totally with the throwaway attitude shown buy most people in this country that instead of working with what is already created, we simply throw away anything that requires any creative effort to fix and just make more cheap plastic crap, its true for household items, buildings, cars whatever, it is a very clear trend towards the whole yang constantly creating, always new mindset. We have surrendered our own personal power and asked our babies to save us. Does anybody else see a few problems with this?

The social services system in our country is a complete failure. Somewhere in the 9 months your baby is gestating your supposed to totally get your head straight and be this perfect mother. But what if the mother herself was abused? Is that not valid and does that not need to be addressed? But families are being torn apart because of the fact people in our society can not stop judging each other long enough to see that we are all human and no one is flawless. Social Services more often than not gets used as a weapon. Let he who is without sin cast the first stone. This judgmental mindset shows a total lack of responsibility and imagination on the part of American adults. We need to address the reason why people are beating their kids as opposed to relying on quick fixes that aren’t really fixes at all. Cursed is the tree that bears fruit, especially when it bears alone.

Childrearing is ten times as hard when poverty enters the picture. Which in the case of single motherhood it always does, because of some self righteous Christian right, who are neither right nor Christian.  I wonder if it ever dawned on some of these religious nutcases that maybe some women would prefer to not marry.  That maybe the life that awaited them in marriage would have been suicide, either mentally or spiritually?  If you want to get back to what Jesus actually taught. Jesus taught God is Love, He taught that the meek shall inherit the earth, to love thy neighbor as thyself and He deemed a lowly prostitute worthy of his salvation. How dare we say otherwise.

There is more news regarding the H1N1 vaccine and it’s not good.  Here, from guest blogger Mary E., are the details.

A week or so ago, it was announced that there was an “unexpected” shortage of the vaccine for H1N1 and that it would be weeks before any additional vaccine would be available for anyone.  Suddenly, this week, shipments of the vaccine are being received, well ahead of the previously announced lack of availability.  I am not surprised.  Last week I learned, from trusted medical personnel awaiting shipments of the vaccine, that in order to make more vaccine available sooner, the makers of the vaccine are diluting it with additional amounts of thimerosal (mercury).

For those of you who don’t already know, thimerosal (mercury) is a deadly poison and a major cause of Autism.  The pharmaceutical industry has acknowledged placing this “preservative” in all flu vaccines (seasonal as well as the H1N1) because so many people are now aware that this is being done.  Note: you can get a seasonal flu vaccine minus the thimerosal (mercury) if you ask for it but I don’t know if this applies to the H1N1.

People in general have become concerned and anxious about the lack of available H1N1 vaccine and news of people dying after becoming ill with this flu, many of them children, hasn’t helped.  You get the idea that many without thinking will rush to get whatever is available as soon as it shows up and may wonder if the shortage was artificial to that end.  We’ve also been informed that children should be getting not one but two vaccinations!  Now back comes the H1N1 vaccine albeit in a more deadly form than the original.  No matter whether children or adults get one or two vaccines, they will be getting a lot more thimerosal (mercury).

As a parent and as an individual contemplating these vaccinations, you may want to carefully consider what’s going on here.  Fortunately, there appears to be an option.  The nasal spray version of the H1N1 apparently has no preservative, including thimerosal (mercury), in it.  Whether or not there will be enough of that to go around, I do not know.  In any case, pharmaceutical companies are required to list all of the ingredients of their products on the package label and you, as a patient and/or parent, have the right to check labels of all medications you receive.  If you are refused this right, beware.

Note: As far as children and others who are becoming very ill with the H1N1, we also need to learn how they are being treated.  Since the H1N1 is known to attack the lungs, the question is, are these patients being treated with Penicillin, the drug of choice for pneumonia.  I know about this first hand since my husband has had several bouts of pneumonia over the years.

One of the initial posts on my blog was titled “Influenza”, and it was in response to going to the White House website, and discovering they had a plan for pandemic flu, and containment of it etc.  This was almost three years ago.  Three years ago they had a plan for this.  Tell me, how did they know?  How could one predict such a thing unless they had been planning it all along?  Unless they were indeed responsible for it and engineered it themselves.  If you doubt me I welcome you to go to the beginning of my blog in March of 2007 and read the post yourself.  I have done extensive research on vaccines, and things like AIDS, and what I have come back with is that AIDS was engineered by our own government, and vaccines are them trying to kill us.  The possibility of Autism from the either the vaccines themselves or the thimerisol in them, a form of mercury that is retained by the brain twice as long as the mercury in fish.  The rampant ear infections(a sign of immune deficiency) and the mysterious sicknesses and fevers of children.  Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.  Any parent knows the ridiculous amount of vaccines administered to children, and the sickness that inevitably results.  It is the same for animals, after being administered their vaccines.  This is not some abstract hypothesis on my part, this is direct empirical knowledge I have gained through my own experience.  Vaccines and those who push them are evil.

You may think I’m nuts, but what better way to deal with overpopulation if you treat humans only as numbers?  Or perhaps more to the point how much money is being made by the pharmacuetical companies from this mass vaccination alone?  How much money do they make from the treatment of Autism and Gullian-Barre syndrome that vaccines have been shown to cause.  How much does the insurance industry profit from people insuring themselves against these engineered epidemics.  I suppose it is no surprise then the violent response to healthcare reform.  They do not heal, and they deliberately make people sick because it is profitable to keep people ill.  Vaccines do not prevent anything.  They invoke an immune response, but building antibodies does not say that if you are infected your body will be able to manufacture them fast enough to stave off sickness.  Actually vaccines up the chance of infection, because they temporarily overload your immune system allowing any virus a greater chance of taking over, they take away a little of the “fuel” of your immune system (Ying, life essence in oriental medicine, is what fuels the immune system, and you only have a limited amount), and in the case of the nasal swine flu vaccine, your snorting live swine flu virus.  Tell me, how the hell is snorting the live virus supposed to prevent infection.  You’d have better odds of not contracting it if you french kissed an infected person.  I said it before in my post “Fundamental Flaws in the Western Approach to Healing” that vaccines are capriciously spending a most precious reserve.  They are an abomination, injecting a hideously impure substance directly into the bloodstream and immune system, thereby subverting all natural defenses. 

But there is more to this story, as there always is.  The roots of this go back at least 60 years.  Think about it people, we had huge “advancements” in medical science and technology after WWII.  Why would that be?  Oh maybe because we conquered the Nazis and as we overtook the concentration camps, we discovered the notes of the monsters like Joseph Mengela that performed horrific experiments on human beings en masse.  Make no mistake, if these discoveries were made at the expense of victims of the Holocaust, they are cursed, and they will do nothing but destroy those foolish or uncaring enough to partake of them.  Vaccines and sulfonamide antibiotics  (think sulfa drugs) were some  of these “advances”.  Now vaccines were nothing new in the 40’s, but they were highly fatal or ineffective.  The modern vaccines that we have now, for measles, for diptheria, whooping cough and polio, all emerged in the 50’s, after the research from the concentration camps would have emerged, research done on the malaria vaccine.  Just like microwaves and color TVs emerged in the warped decade of the 50’s.  Coincidence?  I think not.

So as I sit here tonight and the first doses of the H1N1 vaccine are arriving and being administered to pregnant women and children I am horrified.  Like lambs to the slaughter we are sacrificing our most innocent and precious in the name of what?  It certainly isnt healing, that is for sure.  No we are sacrificing them to our own ignorance and cowardice.  Our ignorance, that instead of living lives deliberately and thoughtfully, we commit our intelligence and power into the hands of monsters, and our cowardice that on some level we know the truth, and instead we chose to ignore it lest it shatter our illusion of stability.  Tell me people, how bad does it have to get before you all wake up?

Read some related links:

http://thebirdflupandemic.com/archives/h1n1-flumist-vaccine-is-live-swine-flu-sprayed-up-your-nose

http://debstake.wordpress.com/2009/10/02/h1n1-swine-flu-vaccine-package-insert-warnings/

http://www.kerrydean.com/news/swine-flu-conspiracy-h1n1-swine-flu-vaccine-neurological-disorders/

http://www.debatepolitics.com/health-care/57802-h1n1-swine-flu-vaccine-mercury-suspension.html

http://www.congresscheck.com/2009/10/09/urgent-lawsuit-filed-against-fda-to-halt-swine-flu-vaccines-claims-fda-violated-federal-law/

http://wireofinformation.wordpress.com/2009/09/26/u-s-navy-soldiers-dying-from-h1n1-swine-flu-vaccines/

http://spktruth2power.wordpress.com/2009/09/28/navy-ships-breaking-out-with-swine-flu-after-h1n1-vaccinations-five-turning-back-from-mission/

http://blogs.healthfreedomalliance.org/blog/2009/10/08/the-great-swine-flu-mystery/

http://thebovine.wordpress.com/2009/10/09/pharmageddon-dr-carley-on-the-rfid-chips-dispensed-by-the-special-needles-used-to-inject-the-h1n1-vaccine/

http://www.vaclib.org/intro/present/overview.htm

So the next post in my magical series is the beginning of the second part, intermediate spellwork/knowledge.  So that being said it’s time to introduce you to chakras.  A lot of the information I am about to give to you comes from a book “Working with your Chakras”, by Ruth White.  It was a little dollar book I picked up at Barnes & Noble years ago, and I have since found to be and indespensible reference tool.  I must give credit where credit is due.

So to start out with there are seven chakras, as diagrammed in the photo above.  They are all connected by a  central column that is also visible in the picture.  The central column is pretty much the spine, but the energy of the spine, not the actual cord or bone.  Chakras deal with energy, not matter directly.  However matter is a reflection of the energy put into it, hence the importance of chakras.  They like acupuncture meridians, are the energy vortexs that combined create the body.  Its like iron filaments and a magnet under a piece of paper.  You can’t see the magnet, but you know its there because the iron filaments follow.  One practice is to clear the central column.  You meditate from the top down, going through each chakra on the way down, clearing any blocks you might encounter on the way down, until your at the base/root chakra, and which point you ascend back up the way you came so to speak, sealing each chakra with a cross of light on the way back up to seal it and protect it.  You want to meditate on the color of each chakra as you go, because the color you percieve is indicative of the health of the chakra, and if it needs healing you need to deliberately infuse it with the proper color, to recharge it.

The first chakra is the base/root.  It opens to the perineum (the area between your plumbing and derierre).  It deals with the concepts of rootedness, incarnation, acceptance, self-preservation, concept.  The age in which it develops is between 0 and 3/5 depending, so parents if you have a child this age, they’re learning about these concepts and so positive reinforcement in this area is a must.  The colors associated with the root are red, brown and mauve.  It associated with the element of earth and the sense of smell and it’s body is physical.  By that I mean we are layers of many different bodies or auric fields and the one associated with this chakra is the physical.  There are extenal ways in which you can seek to balance chakras, fragrances that are stimulating to the root are musk, lavendar, and hyacinth and quietening ones are cedarwood and patchouli.  You can also use crystals for this purpose and those that affect the base are smoky quartz, garnet, alexandrite, ruby, agate, bloodstone, onyx, tiger eye, rose quartz.  The root chakra is also linked to the gonads, so if you have a problems related to these, it could stem from your root chakra.

The next chakra is the Sacral, opens to about two inches below the navel.  It deals with concepts of security, sense of others, sexuality, creativity, empowerment, co-creativity and sincerity.   The developmental age for the sacral is  between 3/5 and 8.  Again parents with children this age, should note that on the unconcious level, the afore mentioned concepts are what your child is dealing with at this time.  The colors associated with this chakra are orange, amber and gold.  It is associated with the element of water, the sense it is related to is taste and the body it generates is the etheric.  Quietening fragrances for this chakra are Musk and Amber, while stimulating ones are Rosemary and Rose Geranium.  Stones that affect the sacral are Amber, Citrine, Topaz, Aventurine, Moonstone and Jasper.  It is also associated with the Lymphatics, so if you have immune system problems, they very well may be the result of an inbalanced sacral chakra.

The third chakra is the Solar Plexus.  This one opens just below the sternum.  Concepts associated with this chakra are Logic, Reason, Opinion, Assimilation, Psychic Intuition.  The Solar Plexus develops between the ages of 8 and 12.  The colors associated with it are Yellow, Gold, and Rose.  It is associated with the element of fire, it is linked to the sense of sight, and the body is the astral.  Quietening fragrances are vetivert and rose, while stimulating ones are bergamot and ylang ylang.  Crystals that affect the solar plexus are Yellow Citrine, Apatite, Calcite, Kunzite, Rose Quartz, Iron Pyrites, Topaz, and Malachite.  It is associated with the adrenals.

The next chakra is the Heart Chakra.  It is located on the same level as the physical heart, only it is centered as the physical heart is actually locted to one side.  It has to do with concepts such Compassion, Feeling, Tenderness, Love of God, Love of others and Detachment.  It develops between the ages of 12 and 15, hence many of the emotional outbursts of young teenagers.   The heart’s colors are  Spring Green, Rose and Rose Amethyst.  It is associated with the element of air, the sense of touch and the body is the feeling.  Quietening fragrances are Sandalwood and Rose, stimulating are Pine and Honeysuckle.  Gemstones that affect the heart are Emerald, Green Calcite, Amber, Azurite, Chrysoberyl, Jade, Rose and Watermelon Tourmalines.  The Glands are connected with this chaakra are the the Thymus.

The fifth chakra is the Throat Chakra.  It opens in the neck, pretty much at the adam’s apple.  It has to do with Expression, Responsibility, Communication and Universal Truth.  It develops between the ages of 15 and 21.  The colors associated with the Throat are Blue, Silver and Turquoise.  It is associated with the element of Ether/Akasha, it is the sense of hearing and the body is the mental.  Quietening fragrances are Lavendar and Hyacinth, while stimulating are Patchouli and White Musk.  Crystals that affect the Throat are Lapis Lazuli, Aquamarine, Sodalite, Turquoise and Sapphire.  The glands associated with this chakra are the thyroids and parathyroids.

The last two main chakras have no developmental age and in most people, they never open if you will.  The two higher chakras separate the poets, artists and philosophers, as well as religious minds, from the rest of the population.  The first of these two is the Brow Chakra, not to be confused with the Third Eye, as this is something entirely different.  It is located in nearly the same place, but it is a little lower, with the Brow chakra being between the eyebrows.  It deals with the concepts of Spirit, Completedness, Inspiration, Insight, Insight, and Command.  The colors associated with it are Indigo, Turquoise, Mauve.  It is associated with the element of Radium which is best described as radiant heat, the essence of the Primal Male, and it is associated with the Higher Mental body.  Quieting Fragrances are White Musk and Hyacinth.  Stimulating fragrances are Violet and Rose Geranium.  Gemstones associated with it are Amethyst, Purple Apatite, Azurite, Calcite, Pearl, Sapphire, Blue and White Fluortie.  Glandularly it is connected to the Pineal.

Finally there is the Crown Chakra.  It opens to the top of the head and it’s associated concepts are Soul, Surrender, Release and Incoming Will.  It’s colors are Violet, White and Gold.  The element related to the Crown is Magnetum, which is best described as the magnetic force of Gravity and black holes, it is the essence of the Primal Female.  The body is the Soul, Ketheric or Causal.  Karma may be a better way of putting it.  Quieting Fragrances are Rosemary and Bergamot, stimulating being Violet and Amber.  Crystals associated with the Crown are Diamond, White Tourmaline, White Jade, Snowy Quartz and Celestite.  It is associated with the Pituitary Gland.

So there is your crash course in chakras.  I realize I’ve thrown a lot of information at you, and no your not going ot absorb it all in one sitting, but meditate on all of the concepts I have presented and eventually the mystery of it all with begin to unravel itself and you will see people and the world arround in a new light.  It should also be noted that if you learn or know how to read auras, you are looking at the balance of a persons chakras.  What colors you see, relate directly back to the concepts and bodily connections of each chakra.  This is the basis of Reiki, which I must note is very effective.  In Reiki, the practioner reads your aura and supplies energy of what color and nature you need, from the energy of the Earth.  It is also no coincidence that when you look into a prism, the colors break down precisely the same way as chakras, red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and the purple.  It is also no coincidence that they form white light, theres a deeper mystery thee which I leave for you all to ponder.  Either way, there you go, Happy Self-Exploration.

This post is geared towards women, I would do a post on men’s mysteries except for the fact that I don’t have the right equipment, and to speak like I had any idea about what it was like to be a man, would be arrogant at best.  So with that being said, in various cultures, the sun and moon are interchangebly associated with male or female dieties.  Most of the time it’s a Sun God and a Moon Goddess, but sometimes it’s vice-versa, in Japan there is a Sun Goddess and The Ancient Egyptian Tehuti or Thoth was a Moon God.  For my purposes though, we’re going to go with majority and discuss the correlation between the moon and the archtypal feminine.

There is a concept in paganism of the Triple Goddess.  Her symbol is pictured above.  Women are naturally aligned to the moon because of their mestrual cycles.  A woman who spends enough time outdoors will naturally synch with the moon so that she is fertile during the full moon and bleeds during the new.  The Triple Moon symbol speaks to the 4 phases of a woman’s life, maiden, mother, crone and then death.  The waxing moon correlates with the Maiden, the young virginal woman, untouched by man, unfettered by children.  The full Moon correlates with the Mother, a woman at the height of her strength, with the primal power to nourish and give things form.  The Crone is associated then with the waning moon, and it symbolizing that yes her strength is waning, but her wisdom grows with each passing year.  Finally there is the inevitable death, symbolized by the new moon and archetypally by the death crone, the hideous half rotted hag like the Norse Hel or  Izanami of Japan, the Lady of Death who offers priceless wisdom to those who have the courage to look and face her, that priceless wisdom being that death is regeneration, rotting results in the fertile ground for the new.  The cycle never ends, the cycle never breaks, death is the passage to the new.  If one can learn to face this, death loses it’s sting, and that is priceless indeed.

In our culture, a woman’s period very often is viewed as an inconvience at best.  This is especially disconcerting to me.  You can hear it in the misogynist idiots who talk about not trusting something that bleeds for seven days and doesn’t die.  In ancient times a woman’s “dark moon time” was viewed as the height of her power.  The menstrual blood is viewed as regenerating in Sexual Alchemy traditions such as Tantra and across the board it is during this time that a woman’s powers of prophecy were considered to be at their greatest strength.  Part of this is due to at the new moon, during a woman’s period she is closest to her “underworld” dark aspect, and dreams and oracular visions come from the under world.   Bleeding every month is also a woman’s way of renewing herself, flushing out the month before so that at the end of her cycle she can emerge stronger.  Woman need to stop trying to keep up with men during this time, and take the time to rest and sit in introspection.  To hell with people who tell you you need to be able to keep on during your period, they are ignorant to say the least.  You can actually damage yourself if you exert yourself too much during your moon time.  You’re not a man, stop trying to be one. 

Which brings me to my final point.  Meditate on these mysteries as there is much more wisdom to be found than what is written on this page.  Stop playing things on men’s terms.  The greatest strength of a woman is her magnetism, implicit in this is gravity and magnetism at it’s extreme, black holes, which can crush anything that enters into them, not even solar masculine light can escape, stick that in you’re pipe and smoke it for awhile:)  Our strength is also our ability to get along with other woman.  Bond together, and bring men to us on our terms, instead of chasing after them, because no matter how good you are, you’re playing their game on their terms, you’re gonna lose.  I said it in my previous post about “the roots of the subjugation of the feminine”, if we women would learn to band together and not give into men until our demands are met, demands like decent compensation for “woman’s” work, like being treated with dignity and respect, men would have now choice but to listen.  Don’t try to go to them, make them come to you, use you’re receptive strength to it’s greatest potential.  I realize this might make me sound like a ball-busting feminist.  The truth is if a man comes to me with honor and respect, I will return it threefold, but if my love and affection are taken for granted and I am ridiculed, I know my power and I have no compunctions about using it.  I believe in the equality of the sexes, one is not better than the other.  We both need each other, but we need to learn to truly understand and respect the fact that we are different, and not be afraid of that fact.  We were created that way for a reason.  A woman’s moody seeming bipolarness, is the way she supposed to be, because we are equipped to dip down into that frightening underworld of death, of emotion, to regenerate ourselves, and those that have the courage to unite with us during that time.  I think the truth is in those matriarchal prehistoric cultures men were treated as inferior, and that paved the way for the pendulum to swing back the other way so that woman are now treated as inferior.  What goes around comes around, and unfortunately among the Goddess/Pagan circles I hang out in, there is definately the notion of male inferiority, which truly saddens me.  We are equal, and we are different.  We were created as such so we might feel the ecstacy of reuniting with each other.

The Ancient Egyptians believed that a person was created of several different “bodies”, such as the ba, the ka, the ib, the sheut etc.  They believed that one of these bodies, the ba left a person during their sleep and came back when a person woke up.  The way I look at things is not much different.  I do not know where it is that I go in my sleep, but I most certainly go somewhere, because I have some fantastic dreams.  I dream the future, quite regularly, prophecy was the gift I asked for when I dedicated myself as a priestess.  They come veiled in their own imagery, but for those who are willing to pay attention, dreams are priceless messages being conveyed.  Let me give you a few cases.

One of the most recent dreams I had consisted of three separate dreams.  The first was I drove back to a town from my recent past I wanted to talk to my ex Jason that lived there.  I did and then I went back to wherever it was my current boyfriend Josh was and found jason’s mother cutting his hair, at which point I informed him I was going to sleep with Jason.  Jason’s mother made a comment to Josh at that point sarcastically that he knew how to pick them.  The next dream was of me trying to find Josh at work.  I needed to pick up my son and Josh was uncaring at best, I had to nag him into coming with me to get my son.  The third was me being at this shopping center that is actually a reoccuring setting in my dreams, and I went and hid in the bushes because I was naked, my parents found me and I was angry at them because I was still getting dressed, at which point I was back in the shopping center and my mother was like a demon trying to gore me.  Those were the three dreams that I had in the same night.  This was about two weeks ago.  Now let me tell you what has happened since then.

I went up to a pagan retreat I go to in the area where I used to live.  I went up there for Beltane.  I came back early and had a wonderful two days with Josh.  Monday rolled around and I needed to go to an appointment for energy assistance.  I forgot the get the info i needed from Josh so i had to call him at work.  He was uncaring at best.  When he came home that night we got in a fight that ended the relationship.  He’s been gone for over a week now.  I did not tell my mother right away because I was still too hurting to face her, but she could tell something was wrong and so i told her at which point she started going throught the reality of things in my life, in a way that only mothers do, and it was quite painful.  I since have called my ex Jason and we have started talking again.  I don’t think it takes to much thought to see that I saw that coming.

Another dream I had a few months ago, was that I was looking for this lecture on ancient egypt at the UW.  I was walking through these parking garages and finally I stopped and asked this lady in what looked like a ticket booth and she told me where the lecture was.  I finally found it and I caught the tail end of a lecture on something biology related.  When the lecture ended the professor, whom I had never seen before in all my life, and who I distinctly remembered how he looked, started talking about how it was really stupid that marijuana was illegal.  That was pretty much the dream.

About a month after I had that dream I was driving in madison on my way back from a meeting, when I had to stop at a red light.  It was a few blocks away from the campus, and as I sat there a man walked right in front of my car ( I was a few cars back in the line), and guess what, he was the man from my dream.  He was dressed like an intellectual so I’m pretty sure he was a professor, he was too old to be a student.  I just sat there with my mouth agape.  In addition the dream was trying to explain to me the role MArijuana plays in being able to access the Askashic records.  For those of you who do not know what I am talking about the Askashic records are a record, stored in the collective unconcious of all that ever was, is and will be.  Marijuana forcibly induces a meditative state which allows the practitioner to access the collective unconcious and therefore the Askashic Records.  My searching for the lecture and finding  a discussion about weed was my unconcious trying to inform me of this role this blessed and sacred herb plays.  It was holy to the Egyptian Tehuti or Thoth, and the Hindu Shiva.  It shouldn’t be illegal, but I digress.

Another dream I had was one where I was in this hotel with a person from my past who slept with a 16 year old when he was 18 and because of it is a sex offender.  The hotel was somewhere in Indiana, and I distinctly remember it because it was very stately, it had low recessed ceilings with large square columns supporting it.  Again I had never seen the hotel before in all of my life.  I was watching public television a month or two ago and a story came on about a change in sex offender laws, and they were interviewing a woman and guess where she was standing, in that hotel, in Indiana.  I swear I have never seen the place before my dream.

I could go on and on with examples, but the point is pay attention to your dreams.  I have a  dream journal that I keep next to my bed, in which I write down dreams as I wake up, along with two different dream dictionaries.  As you meditate more and get more and more used to conciously experiencing the unconcious, you will find that you can start to control what you do in your dreams.  Like I dream alot that my mother or my sister is chasing me and invariably I run off into the bushes and I never totally evade them.  Well last night I had the same dream but instead I conciously chose to fly off instead, and guess what, I did, and I finally evaded them.  I dreamed the other night that I found the ark of the covenant (or that it found me) and that the cherubim on top were turning and looking at me, a which point I was  afraid because they have the power to zap people.  I predicted getting pregnant with my second son in my dreams, I’ve come up with solutions to problems in my dreams, I’ve even predicted plane crashes.  Dreams are also pyschological tools, they can tell you things you need to work on, things that you are conciously stifling in your waking life that need to be paid attention to, fears that you are trying to cover up ( I already told you a few of mine, for those who can read between the lines:) ).  Dreams are invaluable.  For anyone seriously interested in exploring this side of themselves, I have these recommendations. 

-Go to bed clean and showered

-Make sure your bed is comfortable as possible and clean

-Remove or shut off all electrical devices lights what have you that are in your bedroom, these will interfere, that and you’ll sleep better

-Don’t eat within three hours of bedtime, eating late tends to give you nightmares, in addition to making you fat

-Sleep with moonstone, this stone enhances dreams and therefore how well you retain them when you wake.  It may make you dream too vividly though and if it does, sleep with out the moonstone

-Have a dream journal (and a pen) right next to your bed, and write down your dreams as soon as you wake, even if it’s at 3 in the morning

-Invest in a few dream dictionaries, these will help you interpret your dreams

Sweet dreams:)

Okay so you start out by knowing yourself as I outlined in the stability and foundation section.   The next step as I see it is to really understand what is going on in the world.  I think far too many of us live in this isolated world, where the only real input is the TV or a person’s circle of friends that they’ve had their entire life and who all think alike.  You need to step out into the world that you don’t know, you need to step out into the unknown.  I’m not saying leave your friends behind.  Your friends will anchor you, and they are true treasures, never burn those bridges.  If you never associate with new people however, you’ll be stuck in the same rut of perception you’re whole life.  Do something out of the ordinary, go someplace you would never go.  Face your fears, and walk in the front door of your own worst hell.  Think about what would be your exact opposite and go there, meet those people.  For me my opposite was becoming a stripper, and I did it for 9 years off and on.  It was the craziest, weirdest most depraved thing I have ever seen, but I would not trade in the experience it gave me for all the world.  I also willingly became a single mother, twice.  I stayed in abusive relationships where I had a gun held to my head, I was punched into a wall and I was raped just to see if I was cheating on the individual.  I did things that no sane person would want to do, but I did it because I wanted to truly know.  A person from my background can easily become isolated, and fall into the trap of elitism.  It’s standard in the world I came from to go to school, go to graduate school, get married, buy a nice little house in the suburbs, have a nice little career, live and die without ever knowing a day of discomfort, but it is also a life of never knowing anything truly real.   I guess my point is you need to see the poles of our world.  All the world is an interplay between yin and yang, creation vs. control, and if you never see another’s perception your world will forever be a mind-numbing gray area.  You need to know the dark to truly know the light.

With a centered perception you will also start to see other things, things you would never guess, other-worldly things.  I see ghosts, and “demons” and “angels”.  Sometimes you will see them as actual entities, orbs of lights, concious shadows, spirits that are green in color, sometimes you will see them manifest in the people you’re interacting with, such as unreasonable anger, attachment, pyschic abilities in person that doesn’t usually have it.  There is a whole other world that people fail to see because they are so sped up and so off balance that they are literally blind.  It is a regular occurance for me to see these things, and even though I’ve been seeing these things since I was four, I still haven’t gotten used to it.  When you look at the world through tranquil eyes, you will see these supernatural things have a direct relationship with our “reality”.  It’s like a fish in a pond in a rainstorm.  The raindrops (spirits) cause ripples in the water (our world).  The fish (us) have no concept of rain (unless your a catfish, i’d consider the shamans and witches of the world to be the catfish), and so are left to wonder at the causes of this phenomena.   I’m sure all sorts of theories would be posed in this world to explain this unseen force, but the truth is that it is something “otherworldly” that’s doing it.  It’s the same thing with supernatural.  Children naturally have the ability to see these things, but most of us by the time we reach adulthood have turned away, either because we were told to by our parents or we didn’t have the stomach to keep looking.  But even if we do not see things, does not mean it’s not there.  Talking the ostrich approach is only hurting you, and your development as an enlightened human being.  Make no mistake there is some freaky disturbing stuff out there, but if you ever want to find heaven (heaven is within you I might add, as is hell) you must look, you must understand. 

Believe me you may emerge from such a venture as I am proposing half crazy or even dead if you’re not careful, but you must know these things, you have to understand how the world truly works, to be able to tinker with it.  It is the price any adept pays, you will emerge so changed that few will understand you, and it can be a very lonely path.   You’re free to walk away at any time, but know that even a short jog down the path will change you, even if you do not follow it through to the end.  For those who can handle it, there is the ability to change anything, to have everything you’ve ever truly desired.  Notice I say truly, not everything we think we desire is actually what we truly want.  Sometimes what we want is unconcious, and we do things without knowing it to bring about this hidden desire.   Make sure you really know yourself, I cannot stress it enough.

To begin with, to be able Will any kind of change, or up the the probability something will happen, Magick, requires that you have a firm foundation to step out from, your integrity.    There will come a point in your work when it will be all you have to cling to, and you have to be able to believe in yourself otherwise you will be ineffective at best.  At worst you will be locked in a living hell of doubt and fear that will drive you insane.  I have seen it with my own two eyes the effect of an ill prepared person invoking the power of the Gods.  It will ravage you from the inside out until you are an absolute void.  You see Magick works the fundamental tenant that is common in a lot of Eastern thought, by our thoughts we create the world.  That statement is not a euphamism for something else, a different intepretation or a hidden meaning, take that at face value, it is a direct relationship.  If your inner world is full of self defeating, self doubting voices, they will only grow louder if you add Magick into the equation and they will begin to manifest externally.  Make no mistake, Magick and the Divine, is nothing to be trifled with.  There are many testaments through out history of the fact that contact with God, is the most fundamentally disturbing and therefore frightening experiences a person can have.  If you have not learned yourself and your motives and have not sufficiently reeled your emotions in, it will destroy you.  I cannot emphasize this enough.

So that being said I start this treastise with the preparation a person must go throw to be able to handle such revelations.  The two biggest things as far as I see it are diet and meditation.  Most aestetic traditions exspouse a strictly vegetarian diet.  The reasons for this when you boil it down is that it clouds your mind.  Conciousness is imbued in every fiber of your being, and it is no different with an animal.  They are concious sentient beings, that have thoughts hopes and fears just like we do and you eat that when you eat an animal.  This has nothing to do with meat is murder or any other ecological or moral statement I have or could make, it just interferes with your own conciousness.  Next is to remove any intoxicant in your diet, and I’m not just talking about drugs or alchohol, I am talking about sugar, refined grains, coffee, cigarettes and artificial chemicals or any kind including prescription drugs, pesticides, preservatives and the like.  If it didn’t grow out of the ground, don’t eat it, if speeds you up or slows you down, dont eat it.  As I have expounded throughout my entire blog a whole foods diet is imperative.

Once you have a handle on that, and it will take a awhile (don’t push yourself to hard, any abrupt change in diet will be a harmful shock to the system, do this gradually) , you should start concentrating on meditation.  I find the model of the seven chakras as a good place to strike out from if you feel more comfortable with and established map of conciousness, but I started out by just sitting quietly and calming my mind.  You will eventually drop into a dreamlike state where you are concious of all that is going on around you but deeply in tune with your emotions.  When I first started I was under the impression that extenal sensory input was supposed to cease, but usually it is the exact opposite, you are super sensitive and super concious, disturbances must be eliminated when meditating because when you’re interupted by your phone ringing in the middle of sorting out painful childhood traumas it hits like a hammer to the head and leaves you with not really a headache but kind of a strange feeling of suffocation, either way it is definately not fun and it is not healthy.  When you reach this dreamlike state, you are in tune with the True Self, your very own God within.  Each and every one of us has this within, this is the eternal flame if you will, the light of hope that never goes out in a person no matter how exploited or depraved they may become.  This is the voice of truth within a person and it is to this one must always hold.  You may have spontaneous thoughts in this state, or you may have to ask the questions instead, either way this is the key to knowing oneself, and it is this inner voice that you must pacify and reckon with, nobody else’s opinion matters.  This is the man in the mirror you must satisfy.  I do not know the exact mind of everybody who will read this but go where it hurts, explore those feelings and do not be afraid of them.  You have more to fear from not looking.  Try to understand you fundamental nature and why you do things, expose all shadows.  Beware of getting lost though, I have spontaneously bawled my eyes out during meditation, and the pain can be enough to be overwhelming.  The point is acknowledging things and resolving them, not getting lost in a eternal revisitation of the pain that caused it.  Release is good, blowing open the doors of the crypt if you will, but set a limit.  You are looking into the eyes of both life and death when you look into the eyes of the divine, and death has a way of entrancing its victims, do not stare into the eyes of shadow to long, for you may find your very life blood being sucked out.  Do not try to do it all at once either, it takes time, I don’t care who you are nobody has the ability to sort through a lifetime of trauma in one sitting.

I should also mention a tool that has been very helpful for me, Divination.  I regularly consult the Taoist Oracle book, the I Ching, something I will get into more later, but you can find copies of it in any bookstore.  There are other forms of divination such as Tarot or Runes, but I have found the most success with the I Ching.  Such things work by consulting that God within that you consult during meditation, and they are a direct reflection of the unconcious.  If you hit a roadblock or are stumped by something, this can get you back on your way once more.  I do readings almost everyday, on just about everything.  A word of caution though, do not consult Oracles when you are emotional upset.  Because they work with the unconcious and as a result with your emotions, consulting them when one is angry, hurt or emotionally disturbed, will throw off the readings, and you will end up driving yourself nuts trying to sort it out.

This process will take years, a lifetime actually, learning never stops.  The point is in the journey not the destination.  But for deep psychological healing a time frame is hard to gauge, for some it make take months for others it may take years.  For me it took about 5 years of introspection and purification to get to a point where I had near unshakable confidence in myself, I say near because doubt is always there, it’s just a question of limits just like in calculus, you can approach the limit of absolute self confidence, but you cannot never entirely get there and if you do I think it is indicative of a weakness if you think your infallible.   You must believe that you are good, and when you reach that point, you are ready.

So time for more of my random observations.  I am flabbergasted at the amount of pessimistic people that I encounter on a daily basis.  Not only are they pessimistic, but they feel threatened by a person who has hopes and ideas to make the world better.  Day in a day out I deal with people who are willing to stauchly defend outmoded ideas even though they have very little experience or knowledge of the subject.  I guess it stems from that fact that to change one aspect of their perception would result in a domino effect that eventually would threaten their entire world view and I suppose I can sympathize with that, lord knows I wish I had more stability to cling to, it certainly would help my emotional health.  Anyway I digress.  The pessimism I encounter is indicative a very deep and serious problem.  Belief.  People don’t believe their world can get any better and so it doesn’t.  For whatever reason be it too complicated, painful, scary or whatever they don’t look within themselves and realize they have the power to change everything.   This lack of hope is translating into as I see it a global death wish.  The armageddon type mentality that says things cannot be fixed so lets just throw in the towel.  My friends we are going to get our wish if we continue on this path and I don’t know about anybody else but I was raised with the idea that you take care of the gifts you’re given and you don’t give up.  Which brings me to my next point, spell work.  To often it is passed off as something some vengeful wart ridden social outcast does in her spare time, but whereas that does exist, that is quite far from all it is and magic has the potential to create heaven on earth.  In the upcoming weeks I am going to do a thing unheard of for a witch (good thing I’m not truly a witch:) ), I’m going to publish parts of my grimoire.  I also am going to start discussing magical theory and practice, including diet and the concept of a person being a universe onto themselves, a universe that directly affects the outside world.  The intended effect of this is to start educating the hordes of viewers I have (can you smell the sarcasm?) of an alternative way to foment positive change in the world.  It is very disturbing what is happening these days and even more disturbing is the fact that nobody thinks anything can change, but each and every one of us has a small spark of the divine within us and if we do not choose to use our power for ourselves someone or something else will come in and use it.  So be it misguided or not that will now be the focus of my writing.  I hope you find it enlightening:)