So here we are again.  I am continuing to revise my book, and as promised I am giving you all previews.  This chapter falls as the second to the last in the book.  I will publish more soon.  But here is another teaser for your perusal:)

Chapter 16-Sex

As I sit here and read over what I have written so far, I feel like I am looking at an ancient building. A crumbled relic that is little more than badly damaged foundation. But even though the building has long since collapsed, I can still feel it’s presence, almost make out shadows of walls that once stood in grand testament to the very basis of humanity itself . I struggled with the relevance of all I had learned over the years. I struggled to get it, what the profound conclusion was that all of it was pointing towards. And I struggled with it because I was still thinking in terms of something complicated, something grandiose, something very cerebral. But as much as I hate to admit it, even I was still falling into the patriarchal trap of always ego consciousness. I was still thinking, instead of feeling.

I look at our world and I am deeply saddened. It is not the kind of discontent that makes me want to blow up buildings or organize protests. It’s the kind of discontent that makes me wonder what everyone is racing around in circles for, and why doesn’t anybody else get the futility of the way society is set up. I feel like I am sitting in the center as the chaotic world rushes about me in fast forward. I got what I asked for all those years ago. I got perspective in spades, but when it came down to it I am so very lonely, because I feel like I am the only one who gets it. Thoreau said in Walden, “Simplify, simplify simplify“. Such wisdom is not new. Many have followed his path and words, and strove to return to nature and concentrate on the things that really matter. But what are those things. What is the key that is missing, the overlooked piece of the puzzle? One half is sex.. Sex in all of it’s forms. Love, Marriage, emotional bonding, the physical act, and sex as in all it produces, death/rebirth/birth, and regeneration/healing.

A person needs shelter, food and water, a bath, clothes, social companionship and love. Yet people scurry out of the big box stores with cartloads of crap they don’t need, and then wonder why they are still miserable and have to work so hard to afford to live. When people look to external satisfaction, the cycle never ends, and true satisfaction is never achieved, instead the cycle of despair deepens as people realize the retail therapy fix is fleeting and still leaves a person feeling used and alone. Many have said it before but the focus needs to be internal. We humans are a universe on to ourselves. You will find never-ending amusement and exploration within yourself if you would only learn to listen. You have God within you, and he/she will tell you and give you everything you really need. It appalls me how many people have to have a TV on, or radio, or something to fill silence. And the reason is that in that silence one is forced to listen to ones own internal monologue, and in the mind of a person who is sick off of prescriptions drugs, sugar, refined grains, excessive meat eating, hopped up on stimulants, that internal monologue is freakishly out of control.

Sex is the most fundamental aspect of being human aside from eating, menstruation, breathing and evacuation. People want to dress it up, and escape it as much as possible, even hating themselves for having desire, but when it comes down to it, you are ruled by it. Period, end of story. You can run from it and be controlled by it, or you can face it and have it be a source of natural happiness that is given positive outlet. Being a dancer I saw this everyday, and it seemed the more Christian or socially elevated a person was in the outside world, was all the more they were depraved when they came to me. If you suppress it, you only turn it into a demon, and then you have the rapists and child molesters as a result, and you re left with a profound sense of emptiness and loneliness that drives you to fill the void in other ways.

The Christian Church taught us that to indulge the most basic desire for sexual congress was a sin. Even in the bounds of marriage it was only for procreation, and things like fellatio were an abomination. Pleasure was out of the question. Thus even the legal vehicle for sex was stunted, and left the couple in a state of profound shame or resentment that often led to infidelity or hatred. Women were encouraged to dress modestly, lest they be confused with whores, and that their only function was to be vessels to be filled. Men were left with wives that did little to arouse them, and such the woman he loved became the ball and chain he loathed.

I think the reason why the lessons of aesthetics have not been heeded, and by that why people still look to external satisfaction instead of internal, is that these “gurus” have paired this wisdom with less desirable pursuits, such as celibacy. I’m sorry but you are not wise if you cannot reconcile your own sexuality and instead choose to mutilate it and stuff it in a drawer. True wisdom comes when you can accept being human and nature as it is, and that we are created sexual creatures for a reason. Just as the Church fathers betrayed their abnormal preoccupation with sex by their derogating it with such an obsessiveness, any teacher who says sex is shameful, or dirty, or that desires of the flesh should be transcended for enlightenment is really saying that they are still quite immature that they cannot reconcile body and spirit, and that they are ignorant of the very foundations of humanity and thus religion.

Even in the aftermath of the feminist movement, the hippies and Vatican 2, we were supposed to be liberated from our sexual prisons, but yet things are still in disparaging condition. The divorce rate in this country is 50 percent. Sexual predation is going up, not down. Depression is rising and the adult entertainment industry is still doing a booming business. If we were indeed freed, why is everything still a mess? Because nobody has sought or fully explained the divine nature of sex, that is the birthright of every human being, everyday. If you tip the scales so far in one direction, as sex was when it was maligned as evil, you must let the scale fall back the other way. Sex needs to be recognized as the holy and life giving force that it is.

You ask most people about sexual alchemy and they will look at you with at best a blank stare. Few people even know about it, let alone what it is. Even tantra, the most famous form of it all, that still is alive and practiced today, is at best badly misunderstood. We are holy. Every last human being on the planet no matter how depraved they may come has a small spark of the divine within them. Whether you recognize it or not, it is there. There have been so many debates as to why a basic act for procreation is so pleasurable and I don’t know if I want to laugh or vomit at the absurdity of it. It was made pleasurable for us to enjoy it.

This is not to say that I condone mass orgies, because I do not. The various transformations of sexual worship over the centuries was a necessary development in our human spiritual consciousness, but Bacchanalian rites I feel are ones that are best left in the past. We are evolved and civilized and the divine can be fully honored in a monogamous relationship and should be. Just as the Divine lord and lady are one, so should man and woman be one. Not man and woman plus another man and another woman ad infinatum. Even Tantra teaches a committed monogamous relationship is the best to practice alchemy in, because trust is key here, and I’m not just talking about sex, I’m talking about love too. If more people had a lover, and had time to enjoy said lover, there would definitely be less anti-depressant prescriptions being prescribed. There would be less crime, as everyone would be busy getting it on, and probably a lot happier, their would be less pollution, as instead of going out and conquering mother nature, men would be in bed conquering their women, and the women would be most grateful for it. The artificial edifice of commerce and employment would shrink to a more normal size, where it actually serves the needs of man, as opposed to enslaving them.

The wisdom that was buried with the dark goddesses was the salvation of sex, as in it‘s healing regenerative power. You do not need to be an initiate in sexual alchemy to partake in the holy aspect of lovemaking. Make no mistake though, there is more than meets the eye when it comes to sexual congress. However you need only have an open heart and love to feel renewed. Anyone who knows, has felt the redemptive power of love, and the bliss at the moment of orgasm. It transcends all feelings of separateness and loneliness and for a brief fleeting moment, you are One. You could be having the day from hell, but the sweet passion found in the arms of your lover can reset anything, or at the very least dull pain and put distance between you and whatever caused it.

Sex and religion are intricately linked however, there is something quite profound in the conjugal act. Most have sought to suppress the sexuality of man or control it, as a means to control the faithful. But that approach is hideous and horribly wrong. I am not surprised  of the scandals of the Church in recent years. The Church Patriarchy committed a grievous sin when they put the strictures on sex that they did, and their fate is the price they pay. As an undercurrent to all the Goddesses I mentioned there is that edifice I mentioned in the beginning of the chapter. Something so deep, so profound that nothing could completely destroy it. Sexual Alchemy and ritual lovemaking is the foundation of humanity. Almost every great ancient culture had some form of it, and it is no surprise to me that with the suppression of these rites also came the gradual attrition of grandeur from architecture, art, spirituality governance etc. Sex is the sacred fire, it must be maintained

The fundamentally profound nature of sex is that it is a means to empowerment, enlightenment and immortality. In Tantra there is the kundalini, a serpent that is coiled in the base of the spine, the practitioner envisions the kundalini uncoiling and going up the spine into the skull, providing a direct charge to the brain at the moment of orgasm. What I have learned and practice though is something called the Sex Magic of Isis. There are two ways of doing it, either alone or with a partner. It involves visualizing two serpents coming out of the base of the spine. One is the lunar serpent (the essence of void, magnetism, gravity, feminine) and the other is the solar serpent (the essence of light, radiant, nuclear, masculine) The solar serpent comes out on the right and the lunar comes out on the left. If doing this alone, you visualize the serpents crossing through each of the first five chakras, crisscrossing each other as a result, and ending at the area that physically is your brain stem. This is called the chalice, and you visualize a cup in the area where the spine meets the skull that each serpent is poised over so at the moment of orgasm, the energies of the two serpents travel up the spine, through each chakra and discharge their respective energies into the chalice. If you are doing this with a partner, you run your serpents through them, as opposed to through yourself, and they do likewise, and you climax together. You must trust each other to do this because the energy that will be released, is mind-blowing. Physics tells us that when matter and antimatter meet, they annihilate each other releasing tremendous force. The energies of the two serpents can be likened to matter and antimatter. I will get into such magical topics in greater depth in the next chapter, but the more you practice this most holy form of regeneration, the more psychically powerful you will become, and eventually it is supposed to lead to eternal life. Conversely just like matter and antimatter annihilating each other, there is a definite potential for serious psychic damage if done incorrectly. I encourage you to fully explore this most holy and powerful practice through further research. It will be most worth your while.

Whether you practice alchemy or not though, let your life slow down. Make time for love instead of work. Believe me, work will find you, you don’t need to schedule that.. And besides a good hour or two worth of work can get a lot done, spend the rest of the day in pleasurable pursuits. Make love, worship your partner as a God, and ask that he love you like a Goddess. Pleasure him in whatever way, and do not be ashamed of anything he might want to do, if it’s physically possible, there is no law that says it’s wrong . Don’t be in a huge rush. Spend three hours in bed, and if you have kids well make time where your not interrupted by them. You must maintain your relationship, your kids will suffer if you don’t. Spending all day in bed is not a bad thing. Get stoned, or mildly drunk. Behave irresponsibly. You will find that even just a little indulgence in that department goes a long way to your mental and emotional wellbeing and happiness.

When your not in bed spend time building your life together. Grow your own food. Maintaining a garden is both a spiritual and sexual act, that can strengthen a relationship, not to mention provide you with food. Do the ancient rite of Beltane, and of Demeter, of making love in the garden to ensure the soils fertility. What is produced becomes a symbol of bonding and of union, that you participated in that act of creation. Work together around the house, help when he’s fixing stuff, you might just find him hanging around when your doing the dishes.

When you begin to recognize the act of love making as holy, your life takes on new meaning. You become satisfied, you become more sedate. When you have a healthy bond of love you are complete. Many psychologists will tell you that you must be an individual in your own right, and that looking to another for completeness is a form of codependence. You do need to know who you are as an individual and come to terms with that yes, but we do find completion in another, because whether your male or female, your either lacking in a certain department or you got a little extra, and when you find the right mate, you will fit together perfectly, and in that you find completeness. As far as I am concerned the notion that the natural state of humans is to be alone is a load of bullox. No man is an island unto himself. It is separating us in an artificial way, that flies in the face of natural order to sell more anti-depressant prescriptions, because inevitably when your alone, you get depressed and anyone who says otherwise is either lying or a sociopath.

But a life where our most basic nature is holy. Where man and woman are God and Goddess respectively. That is the Garden of Eden we were kicked out of, that is paradise. When you slow down, and consume less and make love more you find peace. When you know that you have the power of God within you, and sex is but another vehicle of the expression of that divinity, it is liberation. When you acknowledge your body as holy, attraction to drugs and other vices cease. The need for constant external input ceases. For the record, I do not classify alcohol and marijuana as “drugs“. They are, but they are natural ones. They have been used with reverence since ancient times, Marijuana being sacred to both Shiva, the consort of Kali, and Tahuti or Thoth as he is better known, the husband of Ma’at. They are a means to greater pleasure, but also must be used with wisdom and temperance, lest they begin to control you. What I am worried about are hard synthetic drugs or heavy duty psychedelics which can drive you insane.

If the world is to get better, the messed up attitude our society has towards sex needs to change, we need to recognize it as the holy powerful force that it is and it begins with woman. In Tantra and other forms of sexual alchemy, woman is held higher than man. Not to say she is better but the feminine wisdom that is called soul, that resides in the Crown Chakra, is the highest principle of all, and women are the embodiments of it. We women are the center of society. We are the culture bearers, the childrearers, cooker of meals, cleaners and creators of homes, and it is our magnetic beauty that brings men to us longing for union with us. Beauty that is inspiration for both poems and the great works of art, and unfortunately wars as well. Feminism rightly threw off the yoke of sexism, but it made it so that women who did want to be happy housewives were still somehow oppressed. I don’t know about anybody else, but I like sitting at home, gardening, taking care of the animals, reading and writing, and I love cooking for my sweetie so that when he gets home from work he has a home cooked meal, prepared with love to restore his strength. Frankly the outside world scares me, there are a lot of out of control weirdos wandering around and I would rather not have to go out into it everyday. I wouldn’t trade my role as homemaker in for the world. The afterbirth of feminism is that it tried to make women the same as men, we are not.

Man’s energy is direct, initiatory, whereas woman’s is mutable and receptive. The four phases of the moon is the perfect way in which to describe the nature of woman, hence it being no coincidence that the moon is more often than not considered feminine, just as it is no coincidence that if a woman spends enough time outdoors, her periodicity will synch with the moon, so that she is fertile during the full moon and bleeds during the new. The four phases of the moon directly relate to not only the phases of a woman’s life, maiden, mother, crone and then death, but it also speaks to the monthly cycle of woman, and therefore her nature and strength. There is no suppression of the light side of woman. That is what is socially acceptable. However there is most definitely a misunderstanding and suppression of woman during her new moon, underworld death phase, signaled by her moon blood. Just like the death goddesses of the underworld, there is something priceless to be gained by not only facing this aspect of woman, but joining with her as well.

In our culture, a woman’s period very often is viewed as an inconvenience at best. This is especially disconcerting to me. You can hear it in the misogynist idiots who talk about not trusting something that bleeds for seven days and doesn’t die. In ancient times a woman’s “dark moon time” was viewed as the height of her power. The menstrual blood is viewed as especially regenerating in sexual alchemy traditions(think rusty sword and you’ll get it) and across the board it is during this time that a woman’s powers of prophecy were considered to be at their greatest strength. At the new moon, a menstruating woman is in greatest tune with her emotions that are an underworld onto themselves, and dreams and oracular visions come from the underworld. Just as the underworld Goddesses regenerate, so bleeding every month is also a woman’s way of renewing herself, flushing out the month before so that at the end of her cycle she can emerge healthier and stronger.

Woman need to stop trying to keep up with men during this time, and take the time to rest and sit in introspection. Eat chocolate, sit around in bed, read books, watch movies. Ignore those who tell you that you need to be able to keep on during your period, they are ignorant to say the least. You can actually damage yourself if you exert yourself too much during your moon time. It is a time when the delicate emotional undercurrents surface, and are especially vulnerable. You’re not a man, stop trying to be one. A woman’s moody seeming bipolarness, is the way she supposed to be, because we are equipped to dip down into that frightening underworld of death, of emotion, of oracular vision and magic to regenerate ourselves, and those that have the courage to unite with us during that time.

I think the truth of why the wisdom of the nature of woman was lost, and the feminine suppressed is in those matriarchal prehistoric cultures, men were treated as inferior, and that paved the way for the pendulum to swing back the other way so that woman are now treated as inferior. What goes around comes around. I believe in the equality of the sexes, one is not better than the other. We are equal, and we are different. We both need each other, but we need to learn to truly understand and respect the fact that we are different, and not be afraid of that fact. We were created that way for a reason. We were created as such so we might feel the ecstasy of reuniting with each other.

Just as women are not men, so men are not women, and it is up to us women to be men’s emotional strength. Maybe you have a man that is in touch with his feminine side and can articulate his feelings, but the majority of males look at being emotional as being effeminate, and they are taught to suck it up and deal. Your not going to get them to talk to you like another girl so don’t even try. This stuffing down of emotions is very unhealthy, that can leave them emotional cripples, but the constancy that results from not always dipping down into ones emotions all the time is valuable. The comfort that comes from knowing my partner will always get up and do what needs to be done is priceless. At the same time though, men can become ticking time bombs and violent if there is never any attempt to understand why they do things or how they feel, or if they feel used or unappreciated. All that magnificent strength men possess can be turned against you in the most horrific way. Men have their own darkness too, and for their own reasons.

Women however are extremely in tune with their own emotions and have a tremendous capacity for empathy, and so it follows that one of our functions in a relationship is to provide an emotionally secure environment where men eventually sense that can let out how they feel. Don’t berate or beat it out of them, just be there to help when they want it. Our intuitive nature is invaluable in childrearing as well, to figure out our children and why on God’s green earth they do the crazy things they do. I had three boys, I know how bizarre it can be. But the converse of this all is that we can do serious damage if we abuse this emotional trust. It is a pity more women do not realize the power they possess, for I know all to many men who have grown to hate women because somewhere in their past they were repeatedly hurt by women who cheated on them, crushed them emotionally, and have no knowledge that they even did it, or worse yet looked at the guys like they were sissies. A lot of women are like kittens, who ambush an unsuspecting victim, sink their claws in and then run away, all to the end of trying to prove their power and prowess, because they are unsure of it. Most women do not realize their power because it was buried in the foundations of the Church, and with great power comes great responsibility. This is where the concept of Soul comes in.

A woman, who has gone through initiation, who has learned what her power is, and how to use it wisely, becomes an embodiment of Soul. It is a difficult concept to describe, but both men and women have them, just as they have spirits, but the two are entirely separate and distinct. Opposite sides of the same coin, with Spirit being male and Soul being female. Soul is associated with the concepts of surrender, release and incoming will. One could call it Karma, but it is this highest form of feminine wisdom that can serve to put both man and woman in harmony with God and with Nature. This is the Goddess that man seeks to worship in an offering of Love. By the magical gifts women are endowed with, which again I will get into more in the next chapter, we serve as being a holy guide. Woman is the totality of what can be known, and man is the knower, the hero who responds to the challenge and seeks to know her to her very depths. When the two are perfectly matched, the knower and the known, they are both released from pain and suffering, and the man who can accept woman, and not shave off parts of her he doesn’t like or cant control, is king of the universe. In the joining of male and female who are equal in power and strength, comes salvation, and this applies to when the male and female mythologies and religions of the world are matched perfectly as well. It is the salvation of our planet.

The role of initiate or priestess in ancient cultures included not only being an intermediary and embodiment of the divine, but a healer as well. They were trained in magic, herb lore, music etc. In essence I am sending out a call for priestesses with this book, priestesses of love, and what I learned as a dancer, as a student and as a mother I am passing on, so that the world may be healed by the institution of a college of the feminine mysteries, to finally balance the male, both in joining with Him fully, and having the power to check Him when He gets out of line.

So number one, take care of yourself. What is within shall come out, and what is out shall come within. Your beauty is your number one asset, true beauty being soul, hold onto it as long as you can, and that is actually longer than you think if you respect the delicate balance that is a woman. We are far more sensitive to external influences and emotional trauma. Women are more likely to internalize pain and suffering and manifest it in the form of breast cancer (breasts are the symbol of a woman’s nurturance, her sensitive empathy: breast cancer is a direct sign that that nature has been abused in the woman in question) or other disease. Women are very delicate creatures emotionally. We can be stronger than any force in the universe as well, but not if our basic nature is not respected and nurtured.

Women need significantly less protein than men, so that being said eat a mostly vegetarian diet. I say mostly because you do need some meat in your diet, but try to get the stuff that is high quality and treated humanely, or that you hunted yourself. You are what you eat, and the suffering of a creature that was only raised for food, and never saw the light of day, as all non-organic, non-cruelty free meat is, will manifest in your psyche and your soul and affect you negatively. A vegetarian diet will clean you up on the inside.

The natural world is a direct reflection of human consciousness, and if we heal ourselves we will heal the earth. The quality of ones food needs to be paid attention to. In our current age of anxiety and stress, refined foods such as sugar and over milled grains further accelerate and destabilize our bodies’ metabolism. Magnesium, a mineral found in brown rice and stone-ground wheat (make sure the ingredient label says stone-ground because otherwise it’s been refined) directly acts to break up what scientists have dubbed the anxiety peptide the forms in the brain. The magnesium found in whole grains cures restless legs, muscle cramps and spasms and has a general stabilizing effect on the body and mind.

Stay away from synthetic drugs of any kind. Even the legal ones destabilize you and will age you faster. Learn to calm your mind, as mental hyperactivity and stress will also eventually manifest as premature aging. Herbs such as chamomile and valerian work very well as sedatives, as does marijuana, an herb that contains significant amounts of EFA‘s including Omega-3 and 6 and Gamma Linolenic Acid. These substances have been proven to help with vascular renewal (the heart and mind are linked in oriental medicine) and mental function. Maintain a healthy weight, and get regular exercise of some sort. The herb Pau d’arco greatly aids weight loss as it destroys pathogenic yeast that gums up a persons metabolism and thought processes, in addition to drying up the dampness of obesity. Meditate and focus on the development of your mind and your morals. As I said true beauty comes from within, concentrate on your Soul. Even in a situation like dancing, it’s the ones who can talk and carry on an intelligent conversation with substance, or express either by speaking or dancing a fundamental truth about the human condition and experience, that make the big bucks. You can be drop dead gorgeous, but it will only carry you so far, if you’re a monster who doesn’t care about anything except yourself, not only are you ugly to everyone around you, but you are doing your own internal goddess a tremendous disservice.

Confidence is a big part of sexual attraction too. Men are turned off by women either looking for a daddy or constant approval. Seek that inner goddess that every woman possesses, let her shine forth. She will transcend all your mortal shortcomings and you will indeed be beautiful beyond compare. Learn to recognize your sexuality as holy as well. Know the power you have, and the responsibility that comes with it. This responsibility not only includes not abusing your power, but also using it when necessary. Beauty is something that is sorely lacking in this world right now, and it is what is needed to get people to start making love to each other again, to stoke the fire of humanity. Because that is the truth of it, when the sexuality of a culture dies, the culture dies too. Not only is this in the procreative sense, that without offspring a population dies, but in the more fundamental role of sex, that of the life force of humanity that is the source of all inspiration. This is why our world is getting duller by the day, and stupider I might add, we’re letting the Sacred Fire burn out.

So that being said, is there some sort of rule that once you graduate from college your supposed to get married, gain 50 pounds and then lob off your hair? I really wonder because that seems to be the norm. A woman’s number one power is her beauty, and not extroverted go to them beauty, but magnetic mysterious attraction that drives men wild. Ladies use your magnetic receptive strength to its greatest potential instead of blighting yourself and acting like a man. Men want to know that they have indeed won a prize in their mate. They want to believe that they indeed have the most beautiful woman in the world, and it is woman’s duty, if she wants to keep her man, to keep up that attractive power. Men want to work for it, they want the challenge, they want to prove themselves man enough, it is in their very nature to conquer, and in that is implicit that you need to put up a fight, you need to give chase and you need to be attractive enough to inspire them to do so. There are very few women though who are appropriately schooled in our role in the mating game .

Soul is true beauty, but physical beauty is just as important when it comes to attracting a man. Men are visual creatures, they want something good to look at. Wear makeup, jewelry, corsets, stockings high heels whatever. And don’t just go for hot or sexy, your trivializing it when you do that. Go for queenly or Goddess like, and act the part. True beauty and majesty do not need to boast. If you are what you need to be, believe me, men will notice without you saying a word. By being beautiful and seductive, you are not a whore, nor are you submitting to them. Whore is merely a label inferior men have used to try to control something they know they can’t. Be the beautiful mysterious magnetic Goddess, that your men have been coming to us strippers to see.

Learn to dance for your partner as well. This is not a talent show, your aiming for seductive and erotic. Women dancing naked for the pleasure of men, is pretty darn normal and natural, its when it’s relegated to dark dirty bars, that are living disease factories because they are never properly cleaned or aired out, that it becomes unnatural. The schism between light and dark is unnatural. Put the beautiful maiden or mother back together with the seductive siren and you get a woman so beautiful, so passionate, so worthy of respect and adoration that no man dare deny her.

People stop being so prudish. Stop hating your body, and the fact you have feelings and urges, stop hating the opposite sex because of whatever trauma in your childhood put you through and realize that there is a very real form of salvation in act of lovemaking, and all that leads up to it. Lose yourself in blissful abandon. There is no feeling like dancing for your lover, and seeing the desire on their face, and finally have build until finally your wildly riding each other with complete abandon. There is nothing more satisfying than knowing that your partner burns for you, and only you. Stop playing by mans rules and make your own.

Which brings me to the other side of sex, the side that unfortunately is a very real possibility when the holiness of love is not respected . Love is the death of the individual. That is why sex was associated with the death Goddesses. With the relationship of love and sex, there is no I or you anymore, only us, and know that that union is an entity in and of itself, with its own power. You can either charge it with the power of love, or something else. But know whatever it is that you do fill it with will spread to all that come in contact with you. I’d rather be spreading love and life.

When the trust between man and woman is betrayed however, either by infidelity, or a woman is raped and abused, that darkness manifests. Just as sex has the power to manifest the beauty of life, it has the power to manifest Hell. Not only for the woman, but for the man who must then deal with the Karma of his actions. Make no mistake, each woman has a Goddess on the inside, complete with Her powers, both those of beauty, and horrific pitiless life sucking vengeance. Hell hath no fury like a woman’s scorn. That is the true paradox of the death Goddess. What was maligned as evil mindless destruction by the Church fathers was actually a deity that more often that not would go after the abusive egotistical monsters that I’m sorry, deserve to die. That is what I was doing unconsciously as a dancer, through the dark side of sex, acting as a Siren, I was grinding down those who really didn’t deserve their life or money anymore. So yes the Dark Lady destroys but for good reason. To maintain the balance and cosmic justice, just like the Furies of Greek lore. She destroys, but she builds something new and better out of that aftermath.

This concept of death being a passage to new life has been lost. Not only is it a means of vengeance but a means of renewal. This world can become very heavy and it can weigh your soul down, and it that capacity, death is mercy. But the loss of this wisdom can be seen everywhere. You can see how people are afraid of this renewing process, in the amount of anti-depressant prescriptions being written, because people are afraid of the breakdown/regenerative process of depression and psychosis. You can see it in a government that madly throws money into a failing system, all the while firmly refusing to acknowledge the stable ground to which they cling has already turned to quicksand. This cycle can be seen in the rotting of a compost pile, or a carcass at the side of a road. As gross as it may be, the microorganisms and flies break down the rotting matter into it’s constituent parts, providing the most fertile ground for the new. Death is but one facet of a Goddess and of the Divine, that is beyond all mortal comprehension. All you can do in the face of this regenerative process is face Her. Face what you most fear, for you will find the seeming destruction and degradation that surrounds Her is actually the cleansing sacred fire of rebirth. Renewing all who go through it and regenerating and healing those who have the courage to look and to Love.

There is one final concept that needs to be addressed in the discussion of sex and that is other aspect in which lovemaking is intricately associated with death. It is in the birth of a child. Motherhood takes away your individuality in a sense, especially when you are pregnant. Everyone knows pregnant women have a tremendous appetite, one that can be seem as having the same nature as the all devouring death Goddess, but as I said that destruction provides the ground for the new, a pregnant woman must consume to nurture the growing life inside of her. Motherhood forces you to have new priorities, it is no longer all about you. It is a redemptive, healing institution as I found out, where you learn so much about yourself and your true nature through your child, but a vocation that is subject to a lot unfairness.

If we want to heal the world, and save ourselves, maybe we should start with the mothers of our children, and beyond that the mother of us all, the earth. For no matter how scarred childbearing may make a woman, they are still beauty incarnate, in fact soul wise, they are even more beautiful after making a baby. They are the word made flesh, they took the spark of the father and manifested new life within them, sacrificing very real parts of their body to do so. Motherhood is a holy institution, whether you are married or not. There is the monstrous notion that a single mother is just a gutter tramp who deserves nothing, thanks to the Church and it‘s overzealous followers, but mothers, especially single mothers are heroines, and should be treated as such.

Mothers protect their children from the evils of the world. The patriarchal, capitalist world that values only money and will commit all sorts of atrocities in that pursuit and has is in the past, is a very real threat to the well being of children. There is a plethora of social woes facing us right now and they are a direct result of the ignorance to the feminine and Her mysteries. The Earth is our mother. The feminine in our society, just as with the Earth, suffers from a total lack of respect. We humans are the most spoiled brats out there for what we do to our Mother. The patriarchy takes and takes and takes with little or no thought as to the toll it takes on the feminine and that somehow, somewhere, that unsustainable growth has to be checked, by unstoppable destruction.

The patriarchy is corrupting our children with this taking without giving something in return mentality. We are raising a crop of spoiled ill-prepared children who are taught for no good reason that they are special, and that everyone’s a winner. Truth is, your only special if you truly strive to be and sacrifice for it, and you’re a winner when you earn it through your blood sweat and tears. Teaching children the mindless drivel that is predominant today is creating a set of adults who are lazy, feel entitled and cannot cope with the inevitable adversity life brings. You’re a monster if you would dare lay a hand on your bundle of perfection, but frankly you need to teach adversity, and how to behave as a moral adult in the controlled environment of their childhood, for their own good, lest you want someone who does not love them like mama teaching it to them later on. I love my little boy, but he can be an unholy terror when he wants to be. Children, just like adults, are a combination of both forces of creation and destruction, good and evil if you must label them as such. They are innately self serving and manipulative. They need to know boundaries, and they need to know them right away from the start, otherwise it results in confusion and personality problems later on. It is better to express displeasure immediately than let it build until people are so rageful at their children that they do cross the line.

Children are treated as if they are better than adults. I swear some people look at kids like they are supposed to save us, that adult life is flawed and only this new life has the power to change anything. It fits in totally with the throwaway attitude shown buy most people in this country that instead of working with what is already created, we simply throw away anything that requires any creative effort to fix and just make more cheap plastic crap, its true for household items, buildings, cars whatever, it is a very clear trend towards the whole yang constantly creating, always new mindset. We have surrendered our own personal power and asked our babies to save us. Does anybody else see a few problems with this?

The social services system in our country is a complete failure. Somewhere in the 9 months your baby is gestating your supposed to totally get your head straight and be this perfect mother. But what if the mother herself was abused? Is that not valid and does that not need to be addressed? But families are being torn apart because of the fact people in our society can not stop judging each other long enough to see that we are all human and no one is flawless. Social Services more often than not gets used as a weapon. Let he who is without sin cast the first stone. This judgmental mindset shows a total lack of responsibility and imagination on the part of American adults. We need to address the reason why people are beating their kids as opposed to relying on quick fixes that aren’t really fixes at all. Cursed is the tree that bears fruit, especially when it bears alone.

Childrearing is ten times as hard when poverty enters the picture. Which in the case of single motherhood it always does, because of some self righteous Christian right, who are neither right nor Christian.  I wonder if it ever dawned on some of these religious nutcases that maybe some women would prefer to not marry.  That maybe the life that awaited them in marriage would have been suicide, either mentally or spiritually?  If you want to get back to what Jesus actually taught. Jesus taught God is Love, He taught that the meek shall inherit the earth, to love thy neighbor as thyself and He deemed a lowly prostitute worthy of his salvation. How dare we say otherwise.

In my 2007 article on ELF I proposed a theory that the two ELF transmitters quite possible may have opened up a portal to death, with their low frequency tinkerings.  A statement I am sure raises a few eyebrows and admittedly is difficult to prove, aside from the evidence I listed in the original article.  However in the last few weeks I did some more research and stumbled upon a forest service plan for the “Chawm”/Northwoods, and guess what it’s callled.  The Twin Ghost Project.  It specifically mentions Clam Lake.   Again, coincidence, I think not.

www.fs.fed.us/…/TwinGhost/Twin_Ghost_Open_House_021109.pdf

www.fs.fed.us/r9/cnnf/natres/eis/gd/TwinGhost/index.html

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.

So a while ago I told you, my reading public, that I was writing a book.  And I promised you that as I had parts finished I would publish them for you to have a sneek peak.  Well I am proud to say that for the most part the rough draft of my book is finished, and I am now in the process of revising and editing.  I think I have the Introduction to my liking and so here is you first teaser.  The working title of this book is “Tales from the Underworld”; exotic dancing as the modern resurgence of the dark goddess archetype and it’s relevance in the face of global annihilation.  I hope you enjoy, and by all means comment.  I love feedback, of any kind:)

Introduction

Our lives begin as an act of congress between our parents. From the energy of their union we are born like tiny stars. We take our turn at the great wheel, and after our mortal flesh is spent, we return from whence we came. What is Death? Where do we come from and where do we go when we die? The modern mythologies fail to answer this question sufficiently. Maybe their answers are suitable for the simplistic, and those who would rather go through the motions and be rewarded with hollow promises for their mediocrity. If you the reader, are interested in simple happy answers, well then I suggest you put this book back where you found it, and go on your merry ignorant way. But if you are like I, whose has seen to much to be satisfied with Sunday school stories and dogma, I press you to read further.

We cannot escape our own death. Nobody wants to talk about it, certainly not face their own mortality, so it is a subject of taboo, that white robed priests fumble to describe and offer insight to at funerals, but it is precisely because we do not want to face it, that we do not understand it, and as a result fear it, and become victims of it, before our mortal flesh even perishes.

When death’s meaning is lost, we as a people, as a culture are stunted. We become more like animals, in our unmitigated instinctual fear of it. Stepping on others for our survival, and dying forever with the regret. What most people do not understand is that no matter how much we run from it or hide from it, She will find us. Even while we live, living death finds us; pain, despair, degredation, depression, and the more we try to avoid them, the more they tend to follow and rule us.

So what is the wisdom of our ultimate destruction? Why should we face the ultimate horror? Because there is a part of us that doesn’t die, if we should choose to honor it, and honor Her. The Death Goddess destroys because she has to. It is not because she is wicked. For 2000 years we have been told to cling to the light and the light will save us. But as we stand in a world polluted seemingly beyond repair, with people regularly destroying themselves on hard synthetic drugs, or killing others before turning the gun on themselves, in a world where the government is way out of line and needs to be put back in it’s place, where is the salvation the Solar Gods promised? We’re supposed to cling to a shred of hope that something better exists in the next life while we shamelessly trash the one we have? Is being given dominion over the all the creatures of the Earth license to destroy them? No, and it is high time the balance be restored.

Death takes the old, the worn out, the useless, the dangerous, the selfish, the greedy, the dishonest, and transforms it. The Sublime Lady of the Underworld takes all and grinds it down in her great mortar and pestle, to create the fertile ground for the new.

She is the Erinys of Greek Mythology, the avenging furies dealing out justice, and without pity delivering the ultimate punishment. She is Kali, cutting through egotistical pretentions with her mighty and bloody sword She is Sekhmet, the fearsome lioness protecting those who cannot protect themselves. But she is also Ma’at, the ultimate truth of existence, who is beautiful and terrible and the same time. She is Persephone, who’s return brings all the world to life again. And she is Isis, who with her sister is the archetypal land that bestows dominion, and all the treasures that go with it.

There are those who would say that the stories of these great ladies are nothing more than old fairytales, conjurings of a primitive people, that has long since been replaced with something better.  An infantile worldview, that strips the individual of their power, and teaches them to fear the natural way of things is not better. A religion that teaches us that our most basic fundamental nature is evil, is the abomination Spirituality is supposed to help an individual to cope, and to live in peace and harmony. No, these ladies stories and wisdom are not fairytales. They are the only thing that will save us.

The Dark Goddess is within all of us, because she is part of the fundamental truth of existence. Death is rebirth and even though her wisdom may have been suppressed, or forgotten, she is still here. She still calls to us, she still rules us, because she is within us and she is the energy ground on which the entire universe rests. Carl Jung wrote of archetypes, psychological imprints that resurface no matter what, that can cause a person to do things without knowing it, and the individual may not be able to reconcile it for years, if ever. She is not dead. She has still called women to her priesthood, whether they know it or not. Exotic Dancing, and all that goes with it are her temples, the dancing girls and prostitutes her acolytes.

For years these girls have been acting out a story as old as time itself, one of ancient honor and holiness without even knowing it. The wild passionate instinctual opera that is stripping, is a modern resurgence of the ancient temples and rites of these Goddesses. The heirodule, the beautiful mysterious priestess, trained in the arts of seduction, dancing with wild abandon, offering solace for the world weary in her embrace, mediatrix of the mysteries of rebirth inherit in the act of lovemaking, free to anyone making an offering to the Goddess, finds her modern equivalent in the exotic dancer.

Unfortunately, with a shift in religious attitudes, and the resultant persecution of anyone who held a different opinion, this history of sexual alchemy, that is the foundation of civilization itself, was buried. And with it, so were her priestesses, cursed to a life of degradation and despoilation. It is the greatest tragedy in history, for love and pleasure were replaced with shame and immolation. A life of leisure, intoxication and bliss was exchanged for back-breaking work, disease and misery. And if you think I am only referring to the girls, you are sadly mistaken, for I speak of all of us. We have been sold short, left wallowing in slavery to ideals and institutions that care nothing of us. This book is to teach what has been lost, and to take back our birthright. May I expose to light what to long has been held in shadow.

So the next post in my magical series is the beginning of the second part, intermediate spellwork/knowledge.  So that being said it’s time to introduce you to chakras.  A lot of the information I am about to give to you comes from a book “Working with your Chakras”, by Ruth White.  It was a little dollar book I picked up at Barnes & Noble years ago, and I have since found to be and indespensible reference tool.  I must give credit where credit is due.

So to start out with there are seven chakras, as diagrammed in the photo above.  They are all connected by a  central column that is also visible in the picture.  The central column is pretty much the spine, but the energy of the spine, not the actual cord or bone.  Chakras deal with energy, not matter directly.  However matter is a reflection of the energy put into it, hence the importance of chakras.  They like acupuncture meridians, are the energy vortexs that combined create the body.  Its like iron filaments and a magnet under a piece of paper.  You can’t see the magnet, but you know its there because the iron filaments follow.  One practice is to clear the central column.  You meditate from the top down, going through each chakra on the way down, clearing any blocks you might encounter on the way down, until your at the base/root chakra, and which point you ascend back up the way you came so to speak, sealing each chakra with a cross of light on the way back up to seal it and protect it.  You want to meditate on the color of each chakra as you go, because the color you percieve is indicative of the health of the chakra, and if it needs healing you need to deliberately infuse it with the proper color, to recharge it.

The first chakra is the base/root.  It opens to the perineum (the area between your plumbing and derierre).  It deals with the concepts of rootedness, incarnation, acceptance, self-preservation, concept.  The age in which it develops is between 0 and 3/5 depending, so parents if you have a child this age, they’re learning about these concepts and so positive reinforcement in this area is a must.  The colors associated with the root are red, brown and mauve.  It associated with the element of earth and the sense of smell and it’s body is physical.  By that I mean we are layers of many different bodies or auric fields and the one associated with this chakra is the physical.  There are extenal ways in which you can seek to balance chakras, fragrances that are stimulating to the root are musk, lavendar, and hyacinth and quietening ones are cedarwood and patchouli.  You can also use crystals for this purpose and those that affect the base are smoky quartz, garnet, alexandrite, ruby, agate, bloodstone, onyx, tiger eye, rose quartz.  The root chakra is also linked to the gonads, so if you have a problems related to these, it could stem from your root chakra.

The next chakra is the Sacral, opens to about two inches below the navel.  It deals with concepts of security, sense of others, sexuality, creativity, empowerment, co-creativity and sincerity.   The developmental age for the sacral is  between 3/5 and 8.  Again parents with children this age, should note that on the unconcious level, the afore mentioned concepts are what your child is dealing with at this time.  The colors associated with this chakra are orange, amber and gold.  It is associated with the element of water, the sense it is related to is taste and the body it generates is the etheric.  Quietening fragrances for this chakra are Musk and Amber, while stimulating ones are Rosemary and Rose Geranium.  Stones that affect the sacral are Amber, Citrine, Topaz, Aventurine, Moonstone and Jasper.  It is also associated with the Lymphatics, so if you have immune system problems, they very well may be the result of an inbalanced sacral chakra.

The third chakra is the Solar Plexus.  This one opens just below the sternum.  Concepts associated with this chakra are Logic, Reason, Opinion, Assimilation, Psychic Intuition.  The Solar Plexus develops between the ages of 8 and 12.  The colors associated with it are Yellow, Gold, and Rose.  It is associated with the element of fire, it is linked to the sense of sight, and the body is the astral.  Quietening fragrances are vetivert and rose, while stimulating ones are bergamot and ylang ylang.  Crystals that affect the solar plexus are Yellow Citrine, Apatite, Calcite, Kunzite, Rose Quartz, Iron Pyrites, Topaz, and Malachite.  It is associated with the adrenals.

The next chakra is the Heart Chakra.  It is located on the same level as the physical heart, only it is centered as the physical heart is actually locted to one side.  It has to do with concepts such Compassion, Feeling, Tenderness, Love of God, Love of others and Detachment.  It develops between the ages of 12 and 15, hence many of the emotional outbursts of young teenagers.   The heart’s colors are  Spring Green, Rose and Rose Amethyst.  It is associated with the element of air, the sense of touch and the body is the feeling.  Quietening fragrances are Sandalwood and Rose, stimulating are Pine and Honeysuckle.  Gemstones that affect the heart are Emerald, Green Calcite, Amber, Azurite, Chrysoberyl, Jade, Rose and Watermelon Tourmalines.  The Glands are connected with this chaakra are the the Thymus.

The fifth chakra is the Throat Chakra.  It opens in the neck, pretty much at the adam’s apple.  It has to do with Expression, Responsibility, Communication and Universal Truth.  It develops between the ages of 15 and 21.  The colors associated with the Throat are Blue, Silver and Turquoise.  It is associated with the element of Ether/Akasha, it is the sense of hearing and the body is the mental.  Quietening fragrances are Lavendar and Hyacinth, while stimulating are Patchouli and White Musk.  Crystals that affect the Throat are Lapis Lazuli, Aquamarine, Sodalite, Turquoise and Sapphire.  The glands associated with this chakra are the thyroids and parathyroids.

The last two main chakras have no developmental age and in most people, they never open if you will.  The two higher chakras separate the poets, artists and philosophers, as well as religious minds, from the rest of the population.  The first of these two is the Brow Chakra, not to be confused with the Third Eye, as this is something entirely different.  It is located in nearly the same place, but it is a little lower, with the Brow chakra being between the eyebrows.  It deals with the concepts of Spirit, Completedness, Inspiration, Insight, Insight, and Command.  The colors associated with it are Indigo, Turquoise, Mauve.  It is associated with the element of Radium which is best described as radiant heat, the essence of the Primal Male, and it is associated with the Higher Mental body.  Quieting Fragrances are White Musk and Hyacinth.  Stimulating fragrances are Violet and Rose Geranium.  Gemstones associated with it are Amethyst, Purple Apatite, Azurite, Calcite, Pearl, Sapphire, Blue and White Fluortie.  Glandularly it is connected to the Pineal.

Finally there is the Crown Chakra.  It opens to the top of the head and it’s associated concepts are Soul, Surrender, Release and Incoming Will.  It’s colors are Violet, White and Gold.  The element related to the Crown is Magnetum, which is best described as the magnetic force of Gravity and black holes, it is the essence of the Primal Female.  The body is the Soul, Ketheric or Causal.  Karma may be a better way of putting it.  Quieting Fragrances are Rosemary and Bergamot, stimulating being Violet and Amber.  Crystals associated with the Crown are Diamond, White Tourmaline, White Jade, Snowy Quartz and Celestite.  It is associated with the Pituitary Gland.

So there is your crash course in chakras.  I realize I’ve thrown a lot of information at you, and no your not going ot absorb it all in one sitting, but meditate on all of the concepts I have presented and eventually the mystery of it all with begin to unravel itself and you will see people and the world arround in a new light.  It should also be noted that if you learn or know how to read auras, you are looking at the balance of a persons chakras.  What colors you see, relate directly back to the concepts and bodily connections of each chakra.  This is the basis of Reiki, which I must note is very effective.  In Reiki, the practioner reads your aura and supplies energy of what color and nature you need, from the energy of the Earth.  It is also no coincidence that when you look into a prism, the colors break down precisely the same way as chakras, red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and the purple.  It is also no coincidence that they form white light, theres a deeper mystery thee which I leave for you all to ponder.  Either way, there you go, Happy Self-Exploration.

For those of you just visiting my site and wondering why there isn’t a Beltane post, it is because I started that series, last Beltane, and so Ostara ended up being the last in the series.  Go back in the archives to last May and you will find it.  Also alot of the meat and potatoes of my blog, is older archived stuff, so poke around, there’s all sorts of crazy stuff on this site:)

So February 2nd was Imbolc.  The year turns once again and we are blessed to stand witness to it.  Imbolc is the start of the end for winter.  It’s a time to step back, take stock and be like, “hey, we made it!!”  From here on out, we can expect warmer days.  Yes there is still going to be cold snaps and blizzards, but they are on the wane.  In six weeks is the vernal equinox, and the official start of spring, so if you haven’t started planning your gardens, you might want to start.  It is a time to gather with friends, and be thankful for your continued existence. I know I am, because the last few months have been extremely trying for me, surviving -20F temperatures in an RV with no heat that isn’t properly insulated is no joke, it sucks.  Some Imbolc traditions are that it is a traditionally ascribed to the Goddess Brigid, of Celtic lore, friendship bread, the oath ring and others.  It is also the time of years when sheep start having their babies, which for our most ancient ancestors was a definate blessing because it  meant they had milk, which is another tradition of Imbolc, the associations with milk.  So there you go, there is you’re extremely brief overview of Imbolc:)

There’s one little tidbit of information that I stumbled across of late, and true to the form of the U.S. government, I have not been able to find any  corroborating evidence.  But I know that it is true because several people have confirmed it for me.  Apparently Rib Mountain used to be host to a uranium mine.  It’s been closed for many years now, but apparently the entrance lies close to the Queen’s chair in the state park section of it.  I know of the quarries on the mountain, but I did not know of this. 

All I have to say is more attention needs to be paid to the stuff that is done to the mountain.  It’s bad enough it’s got a gigantic radio transmitter on top of it, but apparently it’s been violated for the sake of the abomination that is the nuclear program of this country.  And for all you stupid zealots out there that are actually arrogant enough to think that nuclear weapons are a good thing I have only this to say, why don’t you round yourselves up and find out what is like to be blown up in nuclear fire first hand?  You’d be doing the rest of us a big favor.

Rib Mountain is made of Quartzite, a mineral that magnifies any energy put into it.  What has been done to the mountain is magnified by a 1000.  I don’t know how many times I have to say it, but what we are doing is being reflected back on us, we’re only poisoning ourselves.  I go up to the quarry on Rib Mountain and just look at what was done.  It’s nuts.  I have the idea of carving the rocks into something, likes Rameses’ Abu Simbel, something to atone for what was taken out of that mountain.  Come on people, can’t we think about something greater than ourselves or money for once?  I can only hope.

Yule (also known as Candlemas) is Winter Solstice and most of it’s mythos stem from this association.  The solstice is the time when the days are shortest and the nights are longest, but it is the night where the sun is reborn if you will.  Even though January is where you get those bitter cold snaps (as I’m sitting here writing we are going through one right now, it’s -23 F, and that’s before windchill) you can assume that as bad as it’s gotten before Yule will be how it will be for the rest of the winter.  It is a time to share with others and gather together in friendship to survive the long cold.  There is the ritual of the Yule log, something you decorate and invest with intents/”things” you would like to perish from the old year and hopes for the new.  Save the ash if you like for other spells, or for Samhain or Yule of next year

So it’s a little after the fact, but better late than never.  Samhain is, for you muggles, Halloween.  It is the day of the dead.  It is the end of the pagan year and it is the time where the veil between the worlds is the thinnest, hence the legends about the witching hour at midnight where unwary travellers run the risk of being abducted by disgruntled spirits and ghosts.  It is a day to remember those who have come, and gone, before.